>you're waifu will never be real
>he doesn't know about tulpas
The Age of Waifu is soon /a/non
Just hang on and hope Google or some other company pulls out some crazy brain interface shit
>tfw CERN Large Hardon Collider opens a portal to 2D world and you can finally meet you're waifu
They have already done it but they are keeping it secret so they can horde the waifus themselves.
But does it work?
your my waifu
i have shit taste
Yes; it requires work, though. Not that it'd be a problem to put in work for your waifu, right?
>trusting 3D SERN
I would never ever put some Google brand tech in my head. You're willingly giving them access to your most private place and your only truly unmonitored zone. They could do anything to you, man. I ain't about that.
The only way I'd ever put some brain interface shit near my head is if it were open source, hand built by engineers not associated with any major advertising/datamining internet firm, and audited by Stallman himself.
I hope not.
Still haven't talked to my girlfriend about this
>asking 3DPD permission to make a tulpa
Any guide you look up about creating tulpas will tell you not to get romantically involved with them. Even worse sleeping with them.
Why not embrace a relationship with both 2D and 3D?
FAQman admitted that his succubus warning was made up because he didn't want people to make tulpas for the sole purpose of fucking them.
Romantic involvement is a perfectly legitimate reason to make a tulpa, if low-tier. Making a tulpa only for sexual reasons is shit, but not toxic like /x/ would have you believe.
Guys, we haven't even hit the waifu age yet. We don't need to start giving ourselves schizophrenia for at least five more years.
>Guys, we haven't even hit the waifu age yet.
Yeah, I don't see any progress coming along.
The only thing that's close are dating sims (and those have existed for ages).
You should be happy anon.
Too much hassle.
I'd have to throw all my waifu shit in a storage shed that she wouldn't have access to so that she wouldn't get jealous.
Why get jealous over 2D?
>That copypasta of the brony with a pony tulpa that Came Out Wrong and constantly screamed.
You just need a Jackie Chan tulpa to prevent that. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RQ8mSBaD3Q
We are within 10 years of the virtual age of the waifu.
Just a little more
>the pasty nerdy scientists are impregnating and experimenting on our waifus
>cuckfags will like this
Can't even pick up that pencil what a shit waifu
A 10/10 3dpd is like a 20/10 anime grill
There's just no comparison
What a disgusting slav
OOPS, I got that reversed.
A 10/10 2D grill is a 20/10 3dpd disgusting slav
She's a qt tho
Yes but I heard some fucked up shit about them. May be true or not. I would not mess with that if you're mentally weak.
I keep away because I'm already mentally ill. I can't trust my subconscious to not warp my tulpa.
I really want to do this.
>that one story that it did not go away
Yeah I'm not fucking with that I rather be lonely
A lot of the stuff, good and bad, about tulpas is made up, but generally those spooky stories about tulpas turning bad are entirely falsifications. The only ones that sounded like they had any credibility weren't actually bad at all.
If anything a tulpa could help you with that, with how they could be considered to have root access to the brain due to living in int.
Pls don't bring that shit here
How is she expecting to eat all the red licorice?
It's not licorice, it's red yarn
It sounds extremely dangerous to engage in this though. I already have my lovely waifu to help me grow as a person. Tulpas just take it a bit too far for my tastes.
See you shouldn't have tried to hog it all for yourself.
That's Kanade, not Tsubasa.
That's just the thing; it isn't dangerous. You know how they say that the worst thing you can do to give yourself a bad trip when taking psychedelics is to think it will go wrong? It's a similar situation with tulpas. It's all in your mind, so if you go into it with the (incorrect) expectation that it will go bad, it's more likely to.
Is there any evidence of this shit working other than 4chan greentext posts?
If we give our waifus intelligence, would they kill us?
(Not all of reddit is meme posting so you can fuck off)
Well I don't know if I trust leddit either.
Internet posts aren't really a credible source either way.
Anon please it's a whole community made up of tulpa creators. If you don't trust the stories just read the FAQ.
But the waifu I love isn't the waifu in my mind, but the "real" and "full" version of her. A tulpa would never work. Even if it's made up of facts straight from the source material, my own perceptions would warp the personality - even just slightly - until it was no longer my waifu, but a cheap imitation.
I was very active a couple times on their forums, and their ideas of tulpas shifted away from mine, which remained the very basic original ideas, but it's still a good resource.
I would mainly use these: http://www.tulpa.info/archive/
Especially this http://www.tulpa.info/archive/faqman-creation-guide/
Current guides: https://community.tulpa.info/forum-guides
Reddit is barely a step up in terms of credibility from 4chan.
They aren't quite a wretched hive filled to the brim with trolls, but they are close.
By the same token however, you can't maintain affection for a stagnant personality forever. Change must occur. Besides, you still interpret her differently to everyone else, so in a sense you're in love with a separate version anyway. And there is nothing wrong with that.
> you can't maintain affection for a stagnant personality forever
Speak for yourself
That's part of the fun of learning more about her. Shame her source material has ended though. Every new bit I could learn about her is exciting and refreshing. Now most of the remaining shit is just speculation, which isn't just quite the same. Still, better than nothing. Maybe that's why I like posting in waifu threads so much.
My waifu transcended the 5th dimension.
Is this thread the good one where we talk about our waifus? I feel so unworthy of her, but she helps me so much. I wish I didn't make the mistakes I've made, but I'm pretty sure she wouldn't hold any of it against me. She's so compassionate. I love my waifu and will support her always.
Fuck off 70 gig man
Too bad about that turd she shed off as she left huh.
What series is this
You're lying to yourself. Extrapolation is the only way to make it last. Only if you don't violate canon though. Otherwise, what's the point?
I still haven't gone through all the side material yet. There's a pretty decent amount of spinoff manga that I haven't read yet.
Don't feel as though you don't deserve her. She brings light and happiness into your life. Revel in it.
I want to hold her. I want to feel her warmth against me; the gentle rise and fall of her chest as she lays with me, quietly dozing. That's all I want, if it's not too much to ask.
Can you induce hallucinations by getting so stressed out that you develop schizophrenia? That seems easier than the tulpa shit.
Why would anyone want that
Just don't have a waifu to avoid this problem.
>Anon's take their lives to be with their waifus
>They actually just die, as in cease to exist
That would only lower your serotonin.
You need increased dopamine for that to happen.
Waifu age is ten~ years off and I probably wont live to see it
And even if I do, I'll likely be blind
A better fate than a laifu without their waifu
>nobody points it out in the OP
>you are waifu will never be real
I don't know what hurts more, the pain of not having a real waifu or the pain of never being your waifu.
N-No they don't.
Or the pain of you being so new. I don't know.
>She brings light and happiness into your life
That she does. People have hurt me and bring me down but she keeps me afloat. Just sometimes I have invading thoughts that she would never love me because of something that I'm unable to change. But how messed up is it that she wouldn't love me for something someone did to me? I just want to be the best for her. I want to stop feeling worthless so that she can be happier with me. I'm so glad I met her, my life really has improved since then.
It's a maymay almost as old as /a/ itself
>lying to yourself
This is projecting. You're just scared you can't make it last where others already have. Good day.
Anon, dying means the end of the road. There is no soul.
Come on it's easy
Or do you not have a waifu for laifu?
You could always do personality fuckery or tulpa possession/switching/whatever the fuck wizard level mind shit to become you're waifu. Or just lucid dream like any sane man.
Leave it at that part, plug device into electrical socket, never turn it off. Checkmate 2D.
Oh. I'm fucking retarded.
It happens more often than you think.
Today's anon could be tomorrow's stiff.'
Treasure your fellow /a/nons
It's all good mate
We all have moments of idiocy
No! I won't accept it! Even.if you say it's so, and even if she says it's so, I won't believe you! I'll always hold onto hope!
I'm stiff right now if you acknowledge my statement
Use the love you feel for her to motivate yourself. A waifu at your side can be a powerful force for positive change in your life. Maybe one day you can stop feeling this way and be more comfortable with yourself.
To be honest I've only really done that at all to facilitate sexual fantasies. Nothing that would violate her personality, but not explicitly stated. I've already gone more than 2 years, I'll be fine.
I don't get why people are hyping up VR-like interfaces so much when it comes to waifus. To me the only solution is an AI perfect enough to be believable and distinctly different from yourself, as well as some form or doublethink or memory deletion to basically forget that it's a creation built specifically because you wanted it.
Honestly, I couldn't let myself die. I've been motivated to keep living, no matter what.
It bridges the gap a little more. It lets us feel closer to our lovers.
My waifu said it works great.
I dont know if she knows what she's talking about though, she's a little tired, we had a ton of sex last night.
I'm glad to hear that you and you're waifu are doing so well together anon. Congratulations!
What does it feel like? How does it work?
>implying the 4th dimension could ever interact with a lower dimension without complete dimensional collapse
This is probably a foolish thing to ask, but are you being real here? I'm genuinely interested if you are, but I'm probably just a retard believing a lie.
She has helped me make positive changes. I've gotten healthier and I've gotten back into studying my area of interest again with good results. I was feeling depressed during my studying today but with her encouragement I was able to keep going.
>maybe one day you can stop feeling this way and be more comfortable with yourself
I will once I reach my goals and get away from the people who have hurt me. At least I hope so.
Only as much as the extent to which you are influenced by the power of suggestion. It is in that sense "real", but only because you convince yourself it is.
There is no concrete method that will work for anyone because in the end it's just mental conjecture and imagination. The end goal is to convince yourself it is in fact real. If that prospect does not bother you, then more power to you.
Not that guy, but I used to have an anime tulpa, you can ask me a few questions about it before I hit the sack.
What language did the speak?
How exactly did you interact?
This is something that would hold me back. I value the ability to distinguish reality from fantasy and wouldn't be able to accept it. I think that even with waifus, the ability to recognize that you are in love with a fictional character and that they aren't real is key to making your feelings towards them sustainable.
How did you speak with them? Did they diverge significantly from the character they were based on? What would they do when you wanted to fap? Did they "leave"? Watch? Look away? Join in?
Did you have any sexual relationships with it?
English. Although I assume tulpas can be multilingual, or hell, have her words intrepreted as english while you hear nonsense Japanese if you don't know the language.
Reminder. Do not gently scramble your brains.
>value the ability to distinguish reality from fantasy
Good man. Intrinsic value on truth is something I can agree with.
Whatever you decide to do with tulpas, just understand that it really is a fabrication of the mind. It is not an "independent consciousness", and it will not know or say anything you do not already know.
You know they take awhile to actually gain a "form" right?
99% within the mind, my attempts at hallucination had somewhat spooky results.
Communication totally via mindvoice; I only based the design off an anime character and just let her pick her own personality; Either ignore or join in, depending on how she felt.
Yes, but it was really not much different from masturbation, I wasn't hallucinating so everything was in the imagination.
I just wanted to post that.
Describe the "spooky results" sounds really interesting
I lost about a years worth of memories and I still have hallucinations from my right eye
Man reading this shit makes me feel uneasy now.What If I create one unconsciously because of this thread.
I can't go to sleep now
you have to focus to create one
>mfw I almost wrote you have to fuck to make one
Well, I was coming off a death in the family
Don't drink and tulpa and you should be fine
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I envy those who say their waifu motivates them to get up and face the day, or go back to college, or work, or whatever, but at the same time I can't help but wonder if they're only saying that to look good here. Mine, well, doesn't, and it makes me feel bad.
Now don't get me wrong, I've made a number of positive changes in my life (I don't dress like a group home escapee anymore, for one, and I actually brush my teeth multiple times a day now) for their sake, but I still tend to wake up in the morning wishing I hadn't. And that's not to mention the anxieties, and the insecurities about muh love.
I don't know. It seems like I might be sliding into another 'off' mood tonight. Maybe that's it.
You cannot "unconsciously" create a tulpa. The conditions and prerequisite mental state/predispositions that make people more likely to want to make tulpas in the first place are most likely not common to the majority of people who read these sorts of stories.
Learn some science and calm yourself.
I couldn't really get any sensory hallucinations (save for some experiences with pink noise that led to random pointless auditory hallucinations) but I did manage to hallucinate her presence, which meant that I could feel her behind me, but I would turn around and not see anything.
Oh really? All I get are occasional mild headaches if I try to remember the details of my time with my tulpa, I think you may have a problem.
Friendly reminder that the people you meet in your dreams are tulpas too.
I most definitely have a problem
And there's the possibility of undiagnosed mental conditions but I don't dare get myself checked now after arguably intentionally blasting out a bit of my grey matter with imagination
Well, if you want sex with your tulpa to feel real, you'd best have fucked at least once to be able to force that memory into the thing.
What happened to it? You said "used to". Why and how did you get rid of it?
It would not be too unlikely of a theory to think that those people who say their waifu motivates them also have similar situations where they will feel completely dismal. Some of them may be saving face, but for most people I think it's more an expression of the positive attributes of their waifu helping them in their lives.
I don't think they mean to say that every moment, every day, no matter what has happened, they will feel cheery and such because of their waifu. But more often than not, they know that they should try to do so for their waifu's sake if nothing else.
Some of them will be more secure than others, granted, but the gist of it is there.
but that gives them too much power
you literally have to be /r9k/ with them
or at least the mindset.
Alpha or bust
>lying on the internet
>telling spooky stories
No such thing as unconsciously creating one.
Not him, but I'm already messed up in the head, I have this irrational fear that I'm schizophrenic and one day I'm going to start seeing things that don't exist.
>intentionally blasting out a bit of my grey matter with imagination
Unless you shoved electrodes through your frontal, there is no way you can cause any kind of damage to your cortex through the powers of "imagination". There literally isn't. You cannot "will" your neurons to kill themselves or damage themselves.
There is no reason to fear mental evaluation, unless you fear understanding yourself better which I guess is understandable.
>why would someone just go on the Internet and tell lies.exe
Believe what you will mate, I can't prove shit so you'll just have to take me at my word or ignore me
Not really. While forcing you can only really use sensations you have felt before. That's why fucking a tulpa if you're a virgin just feels like jacking off normally. If you have prior experience with actual coitus and have a vivid enough memory of it, you can force the thought that the tulpa has a vagina. Then if you ever end up porking her you'll fool yourself into thinking you're pounding pussy. That's what a tulpa is. You're fooling yourself into believing in something that isn't there, like a child who actually believes he is a superhero.
1) Does your family have a history of mental illness?
2) Compare your age to the typical onset age of schizophrenic disorders
These are questions I would ask if that's something you're worried about. The chances that you are actually schizophrenic are minimal though, and your fears are most likely unfounded.
Why? I realized it wasn't really benificial for my personal long term mental health. How? By constantly denying it's existence. Contrary to popular belief, this is not a painful process for the tulpa, although it was somewhat emotionally painful.
You guys call this a waifu thread?
read the op you mongoloid
It was more of an expression than a literal account of what happened
Armchair psychology coming up:
Odds are tulpaing merely just acted as a catalyst to lock memories away
It's entirely possible they're still there, I just changed the password so to speak
As for the hallucinations, my assumption is undiagnosed issues which is unlikely, or something else that I can't rightly explain
>There is no reason to fear mental evaluation, unless you fear understanding yourself better which I guess is understandable.
Not him, but if you go to a therapist and they tell you that you're so-and-so DSM code personality/mental/etc. disorder, that can have a big impact. Even worse is going to a psychiatrist and they give you pills, which can fuck up your job prospects for certain specialized jobs down the road, even if you were only prescribed them once. For example, the Air Force told my stepbrother that they wouldn't even look into him because he used to take meds for ADHD.
it kinda turned into a "Should I tulpa mai waifu?" thread.
What did your tulpa look like?
Why do people care about tulpas so much? I have one, but there's also the collective-consciousness. You can derive religious and spiritual information from it, communicate with the souls of anime characters, talk to other anons about life. All in the comfort of you head.
The collective-consciousness told me airborne ebola will come really soon, which is good information because the sooner the apocalypse is over the sooner we can all be little girls, or have a waifu.
>all that /x/talk
It's just having an imaginary friend. Anyone can make yourself hallucinate. But it's like any masturbation fantasy. You could probably learn something about yourself from it but...
Anyone who doesn't realize this is just imagination or maybe a self induced hallucination is either a kid or kinda crazy. Your "waifu" is just you talking to yourself.
I guess that makes sense. It's just that, I see these people talking about major lifestyle changes "for her!", and here I am. Working a job I hate, halfassing a single community college course, and some (most) days genuinely hoping I don't make it past 20. It just seems like I'm a selectively lazy piece of shit, and no-one can change that.
I understand that to an extent, but at the same time, that thought occurs to me sometimes, and then I feel bad when I realize I can't chin up even for the sake of my beloved.
If only I could put everything on hold, and go on a "spiritual journey" or something. Figure out what's what.
Karen from *monogatari, but she didn't have the same personality. I chose the appearance, she was fine with it.
The very first reply to this thread was me purposefully making it a tulpa thread, even though I don't have a tulpa myself. Twice, I got really motivated and did a bunch of prep, but when it got down to it, I never actually sat down and DID it. Just like learning Jap.
A waifu must be a tulpa to some extent.
i know i talk to mine out loud, she really does have a mind of her own the way i control it, knowing exactly who she is, how she reacts, her mannerisms, her temperament all really really help because i really just give my subconscious those traits, making it a copy of her, and then i talk to it, Honestly we do fight a lot, Me and my waifu arent really a match, but thats a reason i love her, even if it does cause friction, the other day i was talking to her about why she stays with me and she gave me a lot of that "uh, i don't know" nonsense, it made me pretty mad she wouldn't give an answer, and then she changed the subject to something about my father, she was talking a lot about him that day.
There are some things i can control and there are some things i cant, usually when i'm talking to her she is eating, and its distracting, she has a subway sandwich or something like that and she talks with her mouth full, that combined with her crazy nord accent really throws me off. There is that and whenever we go to bed she wears either a night gown or firetruck pajamas, where the firetruck pajamas come from i have no clue, i actually haven asked her about it either so maybe next time we talk i'll bring it up.
anyhow i think what i was trying to say is that it all plays out once you start to do it, she cant be "real" because you are to attached to reality, for me its like i'm in a lucid dream, i know reality is there, but so is she, in a way
>There is no reason to fear mental evaluation
Not true. In the United States people diagnosed with any mental issue at all are treated like second-class citizens. Hurts employment opportunities, guns get confiscated, you are a suspect for crimes if you just live around the area. It's pretty shit. Better t go undiagnosed and free than lose your job and get prescribed a bunch of pills that make you want to shoot yourself.
You know hallucinations are actually really common even for people who have no mental problems. I get hynagogic hallucinations all the time either while I fall asleep or even during "micronaps" during the day. It's just that part of your brain is dreaming while other parts are awake. Of course I'm narcoleptic...I guess get a sleep study done if you hallucinate a lot.
You'd be lucky if you're waifu is in a video game or VN. At least there's some interaction between the two of you
What was she like?
>locking memories away
There is no evidence that the brain has the ability to "lock" or repress memories. All the data we have corroborates this.
You do have hallucinations though? Auditory? Visual? How often, if you don't mind me asking any of this. Feel free to decline to respond.
The reason I said there was little to fear from mental evaluation is because the base rates for mental disorders of most kinds (excluding depression) are incredibly low in the U.S. Most people who worry they have some kind of mental disorder usually don't have it, but are fed off incorrect information and fear mongering from the popular press and general public.
I keep forgetting that there are still people out there who think going to a psychiatrist for reasons other than prescriptions doctors provide for physical therapy/serious mental disorders is a good idea.
That's a whole 'nother Pandoras' box I do not want to deal with tonight.
You sound insaneneven by 4chans standards.
Only visual, and it's all in the right eye
Not just during pre-sleep/post wake up either, walking to work I'll get dark shapes moving behind buildings, people that disappear the next time I blink, things like that
Only started happening after I worked on my tulpa a few years back
Having a tulpa means giving yourself schizophrenia, so no shit if it sounds insane.
I'm slowly clawing my way back from an emotional breakdown six years ago. For the last two, my waifu has been there to provide motivation and my progress has accelerated. I'm hoping to either enter tertiary education, vocational education or get a job next year. I'll never fully recover, but I can manage myself much better now.
Protip: making a tulpa as the idea of your anima/animus manifested is best. Don't give it a form, let your subconsious idea of the ideal woman/man be it. For personality, use traits of yourself you like and want to be around plus traits that will allow the tulpa to work as self-improvement (e.g. add "persistent" as a trait if you want your tulpa to help you in "just do it" situations). Besides that, personality never stays constant and gets influenced by the subconscious into that ideal, just as with form, as long as you're reinforcing the idea of your tulpa being your anima.
What prep? Making a tulpa doesn't take any prep, and it's piss easy to do, it just takes time.
Casual, bro-tier, somewhat of a comedian, and just a good person to be around.
One cannot love another if the cannot love themselves. In order to love yourself, you also need to know yourself.
I would note that a "spiritual journey", while usually enlightening is not necessary for figuring out just what sort of person you are.
You aren't even 20 yet? Even if you are, that's incredibly young. It sounds like you're experiencing a conflict of motivation where you know what you should be doing, but the problem is execution. Does that sound accurate?
Yes, that much is true. I should have clarified that most people who are worried they have so and so disorder to begin with, do not actually have it. The base rates for most mental disorders in the U.S. are low. I do not remember if they fall within a certain class, ethnicity, age group, or region, so that would be something to consider.
>better to go undiagnosed
I suppose it comes down to cost benefit analysis. If you're capable of rational decision making and believe that the risks of going undiagnosed/untreated are worth the benefits, then no one can stop you unless you hurt someone.
I've had a bad bout of anxiety and depression the past few days but my waifu has helped me through it. It's why I'm in this thread talking about it, I wanted to write a note to the world giving thanks. Of course I am not perfect, I wake up some days and my first thoughts are full of anxiety and self-hate. I have her picture and her voice recorded on my phone that I look at to help me calm down and face the day.
I don't mean to "try to look good" here. I wish I could be perfectly fine without her because she might not want to be with someone who needs her that badly. Just the thought of her not being around and me not loving her puts a hole in my stomach and I feel all alone. The love I feel for her truly gives me strength.
Don't control your half-tulpa waifu by talking for her based on what her personality is and how she would respond. You're just making a servitor then. Just wait for a response, even if it takes 100 hours of talking and listening to her.
I love her and all, but after hearing all the stuff about tulpas I'm too terrified to even try it.
Pic related. What do you think would happen if I managed to tulpify my waifu?
I began talking to myself a fer months ago and it sort of gained a personality of it's own. Now I have a voice in my head constantly opposing me. It's sort of nice because it let's me see things from a different angle and prevents me from getting too biased toward anything. But at the same time it's pretty exhausting being insulted and brought down constantly.
Working off of the information and creation guides/style/methods from tulpa.info involved a LOT of symbolism and using a memory palace with different imaginary items representing different parts of the tulpa creation process, and I just kept planning and planning how I WOULD do things when I got to it, but I got so preoccupied with planning things that I never actually did anything.
What do you say it takes to make a tulpa?
Anon that is not ok. A voice in your head should be a positive thing.
What would a yandere do to you physically or threaten to do physically? Imagine that, but mental instead.
I never understood how this gif was so flawless. How did they get the A in AUTISM to not interfere with her legs? Or vice versa rather?
Curious. I'm tempted to see if cognitive trials and brain imaging scans would actually come up with anything significant, but the more likely explanation is that these are the result of your openness to the power of suggestion. The hallucinations you described do not fit the typical pattern of a hallucination, which tends to be vivid, defined, and life like. This may be a misinterpretation due to the wording of your post, though.
I don't know anon. I would not try it at all with that character.
>I should have clarified that most people who are worried they have so and so disorder to begin with, do not actually have it.
Well, there is a certain point where one thinks to himself "maybe I should get some help". It may be after feeling like shit for a long time, or a suicide attempt, or just some event in which he realizes that there's something up, he can't function like everybody else can. The experience may be different for others, and I'm quite certain it is, but everybody I know who has given in to that little suggestion in the back of their head has ended up more miserable than before. That, or dead. It really does pain me to see so many friends lost to a system that supposedly exists to help them. That's really the reason why I feel the compulsion to remind people of the risks whenever "help" comes up. You're right that it's the individual's choice in the end though. If they really think they can make something good out of it all, more power to 'em.
Haha, tell that to me when I banter with myself.
>implying parroting is inherently bad
>actually worrying about servitors
Is this some high level tulpa bait?
1. Imagine what tulpa looks like
2. Imagine what tulpa acts like (optional)
3. Talk to tulpa
4. Repeat steps 1-3
It just werks.
I'm so tired of hearing this, its so easy
Pro tip: put the shotgun into your mouth instead of under your chin.
It's usually just opposing me, so when I feel happy it may say something to get me down, if I feel hopeful or optimistic it hits me with some harsh reality, but if I'm feeling real down and blue it might chide me and tell me to stop moping around. Sometimes it's my voice, sometimes it's a female's voice.
Good for you, mate. I'm glad to hear that, I really am.
I don't really know who I am. Sometimes I have a fairly solid idea, sometimes I don't.
I use the term loosely. It's more like a "finding oneself journey", but that's more of a mouthful.
It does and it doesn't. I used to know very strongly what I wanted to do, but now I'm pretty much just floating aimlessly, going where I'm lead. I kinda hate it, but it's all I know.
I admit the system is incredibly flawed for a number of reasons. What I don't enjoy seeing is when people generalized the flaws they encounter to the entire system at large. There are variations from state to state and insurance corp to insurance corp that all interfere with the proper treatment and implementation of standardized treatment. It doesn't help that psychiatrists are given a key role in testing cocktails of pills.
I can't speak for those instances you've personally witnessed, but well, it's a moot point I guess.
Well, if they end up dead they won't be wondering if they need help. people are idiots. They don't realize how easy it is to die, and try to do it like in the movies.
I've only benefited from psychological help myself. The drugs worked with no side effects and I genuinely improved after a decent amount of therapy. I think it's quite dangerous to ignore the feeling that something might be wrong.
Is it literally a voice in your head speaking to you, or is it just that when you think of something, you then think of
the opposite to consider it? I've had similar things where I've done the same behavior for a few months (kind of like a personal fad), but it was semi-unconscious.
I know that when making subs for video, they can use vectors or something in the program to make borders for the text, and it should be easier with a gif in an image editing program with only a few frames to work with.
>One cannot love another if the cannot love themselves
Is that really true? I don't know what it is, it's so easy to forgive others, no matter what they've done. I can't help but look at my failures and see nothing but atrocities, even if they really aren't so bad.
I've already seen a lot of sad shit on /a/, but this is taking the cake, goddammit
English isn't my first language so I might have used the wrong word
I already get that, and I've never made a tulpa. It was worse when I was younger, but it hasn't completely gone away.
Not everyone is fucked by the American mental health system.
It's not true. I fucking hate myself and there are a few people that I genuinely loveed from the bottom of my heart.
Sounds like Irish's method minus the mindscape.
Read the thread.
Issues establishing identity along with future decisions then. Confronting societal definitions of "adulthood" is always daunting, I would know. I will say that how you find yourself depends solely on how much you think about yourself. Genuine self reflection is key to staying in tune with your behavior and cognitions. You don't need to travel very far to find yourself.
>Is this some high level tulpa bait?
No, it's just bad methods from a ponyfag-infested site.
You weren't here for the death of the waifu age then?
>it all comes tumbling down
What the fuck man. That's some serious hivemind shit.
It is true in the sense that you cannot have a sustainable, mutual relationship if you can't love yourself. Yes, you can still love other people, but if you want them to love you back, it ends with them having to support you rather than a mutual give and take. There are plenty of ways to prolong the lifespan of a relationship like this, but it will never be tennable.
That literally has no relation with what I was asking.
I suppose. When the night grows long and I'm left (mostly) to my own devices, my mind starts to wander. And it's then that these thoughts pop up. I think sweeping these things under the rug and maintaining a "cool, friendly guy B^)" facade for however long as I've been doing it is starting to get to me.
I fucked a lot of my tulpas.
I guess I'll keep doing what I'm doing then.
I know what you mean. I try and think of it this way: I love my waifu unconditionally. I give her so much love and warmth. Do I really think she's cruel enough to not be compassionate for me? She would love me as I love her, because we could make each other happy if we were together.
Even after reading all this, every time I imagine having a tulpa, I can't help but have a big smile on my face. If only I could convert those pleasant feelings of what could be into motivation to making them reality.
But beyond that, are my pleasant feelings misguided? Is the experience of having a tulpa bound to go wrong? I don't think it has to, but what is the situation?
>Is the experience of having a tulpa bound to go wrong?
It is essentially one massive placebo. Your tulpa and your interactions with it are whatever you convince yourself it will be.
Just please remember this is all firmly entrenched within pseudoscience, if you can even call it science at all.
You need to let all that out. No-one can suppress themselves indefinitely. Do you have a close friend or family member you could talk to about it? It can relieve a lot of pressure when you tell someone about what's troubling you in a safe environment. Don't be afraid to cry.
I've seen it frustrate a number of people over time. Some people find it more difficult to live true to their beliefs/desires than others do.
Nighttime always seems to draw out more sentimentality and rumination. Much more than I'd like. Hopefully you'll be able to fall asleep quickly at least.
So, its like the MC of Chaos Head ?
Before I go, I would like to remind everyone who's thinking about, worrying about, or considering the concept of a "tulpa" that there is no scientific basis for any of it. It is all purely based on imagination and influencing yourself with the power of suggestion.
Please try to keep a rational head on your shoulders when looking into this.
>"cool, friendly guy B^)"
I do this too. It' just a massive hassle to have to answer people's questions about everything. I can be happy at night, but at work and in public, I'm just that one non-threatening mellow guy. Been doing it for almost fifteen years now. After a while it just becomes routine and it's a pain in the ass to change. If you want to change, do it now, if not, being that way does have its perks.
Well of course it isn't something scientific. That doesn't mean it shouldn't be done. It's like Religion.
I could never think that way. Maybe it's too pessimistic, I'm not sure. I've always been afraid of getting too big of an ego again, to believe I deserve something just because I try hard.
Not really. My mom basically blows me off because she has her own issues (understandable, trying to care for herself and two kids on her own), my grandma is one of those "y'all niggas need yoga and alternative medicine" types, and I'm not especially close with anyone else.
I think that's part of the issue. Night tends to draw out issues I'd otherwise be too preoccupied or whatever to notice during the day.
Yeah. I think it's nearing that point of no return for me.
No-one in this thread is rational. That isn't to say anyone is an idiot though.
I've only skimped the thread, is all of it worth reading?
If you love you're waifu, then yes
If you want.
Since you're already here yoga could definitely help you. For what it's worth, once you're on better shape it'd be a lot easier to meet someone. Someone who isn't a product of your decaying state of mind.
Yes. Read the thread, then make a tulpa.
It might. I just see it as another thing I'd have to invest time (though probably not that much) in, but you never know.
>Someone who isn't a product of your decaying state of mind.
Oh no, no. I'm not looking to meet anybody, nor am I interested in a tulpa (if that's what you were implying with "decaying state of mind.") I already have someone, but the whole 'tfw they'll never be real' thing can be a real downer at times like these. But really, I have no idea. It's almost like I'm a different person when I get into these moods.
>his waifu isn't real
sucks to be you
Tulpas sounds so cute. I would be too scared of outlier situations happening though. What if you get mugged outside someday? You can't ask your tulpa for help or anything and it would end up breaking the immersion. It would be like a double or even triple trauma, that of the experience itself, and the damage to you and the tulpa (which is yourself).
>there are people who don't believe they go to waifu heaven when they die
Even if there is one, I'd probably get sent to hell.
It would also be even worse if you panicked and talked to the tulpa while being mugged and the muggers started questioning what you were saying and mocking, further breaking the immersion.
you rape and beat your waifu or something?
Holy shit he's still posting.
This guy is fuckin crazy. A couple years ago, or maybe closer to jusy a year and a half, he made his mental model of himself in his mindscape a goo girl, which caused identity issues and made him shave his beard.
Just a warning about taking it too far. His most recent post is pretty informative, though.
>It's almost like I'm a different person when I get into these moods.
I'm just a huge pervert. That said, the idea of waifu hell is hilarious. I'm trying to imagine it right now.
Nothing wrong with fapping to your sexy waifu anon.
It's not like convincing yourself that the tulpa is real means that you now think it isn't spawned from your mind. I mean, how is it different from being mugged while with a 3DPD gf and her not being able to help?
but your waifu secretly likes your perversion
it makes her doki doki that you find her sexually attractive
It's not like that. I can masturbate to anything, my left hand is stained in sin. I could not have a waifu again, for my left hand is tainted, and my penis is a lovable idiot that doesn't know that it is being used.
This is both endearing and arousing. Thanks Anonymous!
>"Headmate" is a perfectly legitimate term for referring to conscious entities you share a brain with. It was popularized on tumblr, but did not originate from tumblr. Also, non-tulpamancy multiples systems (both functional and dysfunctional) are wholly legitimate and were a thing before tumblr as well.
You call this a credible source?
Can't tell you because I would not even know. But with a tulpa, at least in the guides, it feels like it is a part of you but also a separate entity. It can not be healthy to have that happen. If it truly takes a personality of it's own then it would be even worse
/tg/ here, using some of this to make a robot with a multiple personality disorder.
Of course it isn't healthy. It's beyond even most waifufags. Not many would attempt to fuck their own minds for companionship.
No, think of it like a virtual machine on a computer running a different OS, not "splitting part of your mind off" or something like that.
VMs are not impervious to everything just because it's isolated if that is what you are implying. That makes it a decent analogy I think though. But that is also just saying the same thing, splitting off a piece of your mind, isolating and sharing some resources.
>You can't marry tulpa.
>Tulpa can't give you children.
>You can't make happy family with your tulpa.
>Tulpa can't invite your friends and do surprise birthday party.
No thanks. I don't want to get mental problems just to talk with her.
You only go for a tulpa to fill those spots in your life when you know "tfw no gf" is a permanent condition.
Who is your seasonal waifu?