>Madoka aired 3 years ago
>Steins;gate aired 3 years ago
>Nichijou aired 3 years ago
>Panty and Stocking aired 4 years ago
>Bakemonogatari aired 5 years ago
>K-ON S1 aired 6 years ago
>Code Geass aired 8 years ago
>Haruhi aired 8 years ago
>Rozen Maiden aired 10 years ago
>Evangelion aired 19 years ago
Where the fuck has time gone. What am I doing with my life
Too deep in the hole now. The only direction is down.
Keep watching anime and hope for the best.
>tfw Evangelion aired in 1789
>Gundam aired 38years ago in my country
>29 in Japan
>I didn't find any other show that i like as much as Gundam.
>2013 was a year ago
I started watching anime only a year ago. My life was already shit so I'm in the same position
Where has it gone? Where lost dreams and hopes inevitably go.
What are you doing with your life? Nothing, just like everyone else. Just do what you want and don't hate yourself or others....if you can help it.
Life's too short.
And if you're going to do something right now? Get up and go for a walk, getting healthier and looking a bit better and feeling like a waste is a hell of a lot better then looking like and feeling like how that looks and feeling like a waste.
This, I dropped anime for a while, but realized that it doesn't fucking matter what I do in my spare time, I might as well do something I enjoy.
>Nanoha aired 10 years ago
>Life's too short.
Man...here come the blogs.
Yes, life is too short and it's for that reason that it's hard not to hate yourself and wallow in misery. It's not like not hating yourself would provide much more happiness. You'll still end with regret and sadness.
Not OP but as for your suggestion to get healthy, I am healthy. I am fit. I have a multitude of skills and athletic ability but I'm not putting it to much use other than my sport which I seldom do now. It sure is nice to be fit but it still doesn't take away the feeling of feeling like shit, feeling like a waste and what you mentioned.
>2000 was 30 years ago
How does it feel to be old, anon-chan?
>There are kids in high school who were never alive in the last century.
To elaborate, when I said life's too short and it's hard not to hate yourself, I meant because you're not doing anything. At the end of the day, not doing anything means you're not doing anything. You're not living your dreams or being productive so you can't help but feel like shit. Choosing not to hate yourself for it doesn't change much and is basically a facade.
I say >still not living your dreams. But if your dreams are just sitting on /a/, watching anime, manga, VNs and whatever, then I both envy and pity you. Envy because you have experienced your desires and fulfilled your goals so you're most likely happier than I am, but pity because you haven't experienced any of the joys of life.
>The GiTS movie premiered 54 years ago
And I still don't have a fucking sex robot.
Fuck you all. I am watching anime and reading manga. That's what I'm doing with my life and that's what I want to keep doing with my life. All my efforts, my college education, my job, the daily grind, it's all so one day I can have a place of my own, no family, no roommates, a place of my own where I can fap all the time and be happy.
If that's not heaven, well then nothing will make you happy.
Can I report this thread so I don't have to be reminded of how fucked up my life has become?
This is all blogshit.
>free aired 420 years ago
>in 4 years millennium babies will be 18
I'm not sure how I feel about this
>Gurren lagann is my favorite anime
>7 years ago
God dammit /a/
>SAO aired 5 years ago
>SnK aired 4 years ago
>Naruto ended 2 years ago
>Bleach never ended
Anime used to be gud :(
>Eva already started 3 weeks ago
It's good not to have massive dreams like me which will simply result in fucking writhing in despair all the time, but there is a thing called higher pleasure. It's like the difference between being happy because you'er educated and knowledgeable or being happy because you club and fuck all day except replace that with watching anime all day. One gives you longer lasting, more valuable pleasure while the other is more like a distraction of pleasure that doesn't last long or give you as much a quantity of happiness.
>All that time spent masturbating
>Even when I didn't want to
>Even when I wasn't horny
>Even when my dick was too sore
>One day this will be true.
>We will all be fucking dead.
God I can't remember the last time I DIDN'T have scabs on my dick.
The only thing I can't stand is pity. People say you're in denial, that's not what you really want. Fuck you, how do you know what I really want? It's not sad, it's just annoying. Remember the insufferable cunt of a Professor in Good Will Hunting? He always pitied Robin Williams because he didn't win the Fields Medal, not knowing that Robin met his wife and lived the dream.
The things I fapped to
Just to fap to it
>Nichijou aired 3 years ago
Holy shit. It feels like a year ago at most.
>Gundam aired in your country before it aired in Japan
Honestly I don't even see a problem watching anime. Even if you are 50 year old man. Just as long as it not you only focus in life. At the risk of sound cliche, "Everything in moderation"
There are people who watch live actions movies daily, and yet they still get up in the morning to go to work, school, etc.
Shouldn't be any different just because you watch anime.
>had to give up mid fap earlier because my dick was hurting so bad
Is there a worse feel?
>but pity because you haven't experienced any of the joys of life
And you have?
>Gundam aired in your country before it aired in Japan
Yeah, I was confused by this post also
That's...pretty intense. Well, even though you said you masturbated when not horny, I still wish my sex drive was as strong as yours. I'm 19 and I feel like a fucking grandfather. My last hope is that my sex drive is in hibernation and something will spark it, causing it to go on full fucking rampage. God, I've become so cold
Literally shitting the bed.
I'm not saying anything like that. I'm saying that I believe there are better things. more pleasurable things, to life than just anime and it's sad that him(maybe) nor I will ever experience them.
I've... masturbated to things you people wouldn't believe. Penises rubbing on the shoulders of amputees. I've seen semen glittering off the distended anus of a young woman.
All of these ejaculations will be lost in time. Like cum, in rain. Time to go again.
I'm pretty passive most of the time, I have a once a week fap schedule usually, but oh boy is it ever glorious
My sex drive is the only thing down there that doesn't feel like it's 50. I can't take solid shits or piss properly. Sleep deprivation's a bitch.
Ok the thread has completely derailed from anime to penis problems.
I hate that I've done that shit because I only do it when I can't find what I want and instead find progressively weirder shit in search of it. I just want some albino porn dammit. Is that so weird?
Yeah, I'm like that too except fapping once a week is no where near as pleasurable now as when I waited a week at 14.
What's causing that deprivation?
It was never actually about anime anyways.
Goddamn if I had spent all that time doing things other than fapping I'd probably be an anime and manga encyclopedia and fully mastered the moon language
/adv/ pls go.
No it's not. At least you don't feel as pitiful as me like when I first came to 4chan and /b/ turned me from saying "Wow, masturbating to your little sister is fucked up and I'll never do that shit" to "Well..I've always kind of had that tiny urge that turns me on because it's like the supposed forbidden fruit. But it's still fucked up and I'll never do it." to "Fuck, this is amazing"
>4 years ago i was wondering how different my life would be next time the World Cup rolled around
>almost /wc/ time and life is still miserably the same
my shit taste in anime is all that keeps me going
>the dawn of moe was 38 years ago
you mean a month ago.
>Horizon S2 aired a year and a half ago
Luckily my siblings are fat fucks.
I feel you anon. I have the back of a 40 year old and barely move all day, but I fap at least 40% of my time awake.
I'm going to be 30 in march. No career. No family. I need a redo for the past fucking 10 years of my life.
>1998 was 89 years ago
What really makes me sad is that being in threads like these barely makes me feel a bit better about my life, unlike a few years ago where being in these threads made me feel like I was doing amazing in life. Fuck. Fuck you all.
I'm wasting my time, my life, my young fucking years doing NOTHING. I'm only growing older and...God damn, it can't all come out on text. Fuck this shit.
actually, once you've hit the bottom, there's no way to go but up
4 years ago, I still had hope.
Everyone's slowly dying anon, everyone. Face it, our generation's just lost the ambition that our shithead baby boomer parents had. At this point people like >>101607195 are almost typical.
30 is the new 10.
About to be a quarter century old! If I wouldn't have been arrested twice I probably would have nothing to do with you people. I think. Or I'd at least be in school letting /a/ destroy my grades which is better than /a/ destroying my nothing.
I just want a Hikaru Genji. As wrong as it is to have these threads, they really are nice to have once in a while to just have a bunch of faggots spewing their shit, problems and stress out.
Well done, OP, I'm sure you helped some people, if not taken a load off of them.
He hasn't hit the bottom yet though. He's still falling. And when he hits he'll be too broken to move anywhere.
Only one option
>our generation's just lost the ambition that our shithead baby boomer parents had.
I'm glad I'm not the only one that's realized this. We don't have the heart or vigor that we should to give us the motivation to push us through life. Kill me.
>tfw I've been a NEET for 5 years now I've been doing nothing but play video games, watch anime, and browse 4chan
>What am I doing with my life
Posting /r9k/ feelshit on boards it doesn't belong on, apparently.
Going to be turning 30 soon myself. Take up some hobbies. Try to network. Pull yourself out of the gutter. Don't give up.
>What am I doing with my life
>tfw making 40k watching anime
Isn't that much but I can't complain when I've made a big hobby into a career.
Me too. It feels like no time at all has passed.
St/a/rted at the bottom
now we fucking here
Well that doesn't mean we can't have a life. Just odds are we won't be able to get one until we grow up, unlike baby boomers who just went out starting shit the majority of their youth and had to deal with whatever life they had when it finally hit them around age 30. And I mean ACTUALLY grow up, which for us is probably between 25 and 35. We'll probably live to be at least 70, there's no reason we can't have something, anything at all to call a life, by then.
What's the point of making 500K a year if you do something you hate to make it? Progress and success are meaningless if they cost you your soul.
>tfw I would have been a huge FMA fan if it was FMA:B that was aired and not the atrocity that was FMA.
Shit son. Brotherhood is a lot better.
What exactly do you do for money.
>TFW I suck at school
>TFW no job
>TFW too lazy to even become a NEET
I just fail at everything I do.
>still at the bottom
Fuck. Not as planned.
The worst to deal with is the fact that Spice and Wolf aired in 2008, that was the show I first watched with /a/.
Holy fuck where did 6 years of my life go.
Well you still have 500k that you can use to do things you love.
I'm still salty about how much I hate one of my ex best friends, so I'm gonna try and fuck his sister. Without raping her.
>bakemonogatari was 5 years ago
I can believe it but not accept it
I mean they've effectively put out a "season" a year, if you count Black's 4 episodes as a season, or if you shrink White and just count them both as "nekomonogatari"
crab still best
Baby boomers did have well paying manufacturing jobs and other similar careers they could easily get into without a college degree or much previous training. A large chunk of the jobs that helped our parents and grandparents get on their feet has been shipped overseas to people that work for maybe a dollar a day or to a robot.
Technology and capitalism has fucked our generation in the ass.
I think by then the most important and pleasurable years will be gone. I value my youth years more than anything, yet I do nothing about it.
/a/ has, ironically, made me somewhat of a better person. I'm more confident than I used to be, and I form my own opinions rather than base them off those of others.
What's the best way to kill yourself /a/?
I've tried h2s gas but then I realized that the person who would find me might get injured as well.
Graduating with bachelor's in graphic design this winter. Have had a two year internship with a small company. Hope I'll be able to find work. Everyone I know is married and has a fucking kid. Fuck society.
By then you'll have stopped worrying enough to do what you want. You won't enjoy it as much but it's still worth doing.
How about you don't? There's no reason, no matter how pitiful your life is, to kill yourself. The fact that you're typing to me from a computer solidifies that statement even more. There's always another way. Misery can blind you, but you can escape it.
Age can just be a number. Enjoy your life.
>you reported this thread 20 seconds ago
See a therapist. They're usually pretty fucked up and have probably thought it through, they'd be able to tell you the best method.
Don't worry, I had the same thing a few years past around your age. I think it's just the comedown from all the extra testosterone you got going through puberty or something. You'll be picking the rifle up and fapping the good fap in no time.
my little anonymous can't be this pessimistic!
I've never known I wanted this until now.
I don't care how different our taste in anime is, please don't kill yourself.
On a neurological level you just don't have as much serotonin, you can feel pleasure and happiness but you won't be able to remember it or be as receptive after a certain point. That's what causes nostalgia, remembering times when you had more of it.
There..are so many things I've wanted to do that only a kid, a child, an adolescent could do. So many. I've missed out on so fucking much so early in my life. Those experiences that you can only have at that young an age are experiences that are some of the most valuable and I will never get the chance again. Fuck highschool.
This thread makes me want to kill myself.
Do you guys think anime will be forgotten at one point. I mean, who's gonna remember all this in 70-100 years when were all dead. Who's gonna be the last one to give a shit about Eva or their waifu when their series is long gone?
>no one will remember you're waifu in 100 years
It just came to me one day, and I thought it had to exist somewhere. But I'm starting to think it doesn't. I want it so bad.
Give in and join the military. It's really not so bad.
>Haruhi aired 8 years ago
Ok, that one got me.
who cares. it was made for us anyway, not hypothetical people a century later
/a/ and anime/manga in general has taught me some very applicable life lessons.
In fact, I've used several phrases or quotes from anime to swoon some lady friends into liking me.
This post tore me apart. Man, you really hit home.
If Shakespeare and Gothic literature are any indication, they'll remember either the most popular shit, or the best archived shit.
This, these threads always get me depressed as fuck. When I'm living in the moment, life's pretty cool. Uncertain as fuck, but totally livable. But when I look back at the past, I realize how much time I've wasted waiting for things to happen and then I just resort to getting smashed alone and realizing I'm a waste of a fucking human being.
You must have the wrong waifu then
>10 years ago
Name one. It's not that I doubt you, it's that I've picked up a lot but it's nothing I can think of and bring up.
Live with it man. As long as you can still feel you're still living. The fact that reading that hurts so much is proof enough.
Do we have a reasons not to kill yourself 2014 list yet?
It might delay my trip to Gensokyo a little longer
I lived the NEET life for a good 4 years. the first year or so i dont really count though because i had friends and a gf.
but from january 2011 to november 2013 I was truly an all out NEET and i was very very happy.
Now I have a job and socialize and feel normal and miserable. I guess thats life.
>implying history will remember the best girls
this. this sooooo fucking much. this is seriously the only reason i'm going to college. i just want to be alone, watch anime, blare music and be with my thoughts.
In 4 millennium babies will be 18.
We do, and they're very true and quantified but right now, I'm feeling like none of them matter.
I've got Ping Pong, Parasyte and Mushishi S2. I think I'm good.
There are none
>it's that I've picked up a lot but it's nothing I can think of and bring up
Unfortunately I would have to agree with this statement, but one particular incident happened during a time where I was watching something.. (can't remember) and I used a phrase very similar.
It was something along the lines about how I wouldn't be able to understand her, and I don't care what she does, but ultimately as long as she finds a way to be happy, I'll be happy as well.
I need to know what people do as NEETS. Is it really just filling out online surveys and shit?
Then the crushing loneliness hits you and your heaven falls apart.
>a month into winter 2014
I still lived at home with my parents.
Unless you're asking how I actually passed my time as a NEET.
It's like they say in Fight Club, our generation has no great cause, it has no war, it has no civil rights zeitgeist, or cult of economic contribution. All we have is the revelation of just how far up our asses the puppeteers' hands are, mired with an apathy that saps the will to do anything about it.
I realize I went into some sort of /pol/ or /x/ direction there, but christ, it's the only thing I can think to say.
This is now a depression thread.
>it already was.
I seriously hope this doesn't happen to me.
>implying he wants company
I wish there was a huge war that I could fight and die in.
It used to be telemarketing but that's dead so it's probably those weird blog spam groups that scam advertisers and online schemes like that.
Oh, well, nevermind then.
Well, it's true at the least.
He might not now, but I've been there already.
3 years isn't really a long time.
You guys are as bad as R9K. Shit, I bet it's the same people.
Don`t kill yourself
Although I heard that the most efficient way to kill yourself with the least amount of pain is to shoot yourself in the head with a shotgun
>I realize I went into some sort of /pol/ or /x/ direction there, but christ, it's the only thing I can think to say.
/pol/ is always right in the end.
And love is a greater motivator than cynicism. Just find love in your race or country and you will be motivated to act against your puppet masters. They are the ones seeding that cynical depression.
Try doing something outrageous! Why does everyone have to be so sad and pessimistic??
Live long and prosper, anons!
No, not if you don't do anything in that time.
I second this.
Official Phases of My Life Power Ranking
1. NEET Life
2. 10 month period when i had a gf and all we did was lounge around and watch tv and argue all day
3. that 4 month period preceding the gf period where me and my bro would work out and look for grill friends all day erry day
900001. School Life
90000000000001. Functional part of society with job and insurance and yada yada Life
Everyone on 4chan shares these issues. Except for the very new, but they will soon too.
Not him but I pity the guy who would have to clean that mess up.
You can't just get up and do something outrageous. Society pins us down. No money? No job? No social life? YOU'RE DOING FUCK ALL THAT'S OUTRAGEOUS IF THAT'S THE CASE!
Fucking this, holy shit. I wish I could win the lottery so I could buy a huge ass mansion and watch anime and fap all day in my home theater and just keep to myself.
it's more to do with there being too many things you could hypothetically be making you hesitate and then not pursue any of them.
and the job market is fucking, you have to fight like an animal to even get bullshit sales door-to-door commission work or to flip burgers. life can't start because there's no opportunity to do it and then when they see massive gaps in your employment they want you even less.
Heartcatch was four seasons ago.
I only regret that I wasted my time browsing this board and not reading more manga/watching more anime. I wish all these normies and aspiring normies would leave.
At least we're aware of how much we're fucking up now. It used to be that you just fucked around, albeit actually living life, until you were in your 20s and then settled for whatever you could get and dealt with how unsatisfying it was. We aren't entirely unaware of how bullshit our causes are. We might die unfulfilled but at least it won't be some shocking revelation that makes us hate everything instead of just ourselves.
That guy is full of shit. But don't kill youself either way.
Helium is the most painless way, since your body thinks it's oxygen and you just pass out until suffocation
Did you fuck her?
>2011 will be the best year of anime in your viewing lifetime
>tiger and bunny
could there possibly be a more stacked year?
i don't want to feel that feel anymore
What did you get arrested for?
Is it true that if you jumped off some big ass building you would have a heart attack before you splattered on the pavement? I've heard that rumor before.
I need to know for reasons.
I don`t remember their official names, but the people who clean up crime scenes make a decent amount of money for their jobs. Around 80K a year I think
The paralyzing fear of uncertainty gets me the worst. I'm at such a turning point in my life as I graduate, and it's bloody fucking insane. I don't know where I want to work, who I want to fuck and start a family with, when and how much I need to start saving for my future.
Fucking. I have absolutely no idea what tomorrow holds for me, much less years from now. I hate this shit, which is why I turn to playing Dota 2 and watching Jap shit all day long. Fuck this, man. The baby boomers are fucking up our economy and it's scaring the shit out of me what's going to happen 20 years from now. We have batshit insane countries that I hope never flip their lid and cause an all-out nuclear war. And with mass shootings on the rise, going to malls and shit to hang out with friends could turn into, at worst, death, and at least a life-scarring situation.
Why are we all fucked up? Why couldn't I have been born 500 years from now when we're all in space exploring and shit. We were all born in the wrong time, too old to explore earth, too young to explore space. I want to see humans do something great in my lifetime, and with companies buying out the government, I just can't fucking imagine anything decent for the next few decades.
There are next to none here, Anon. We are all genuine /a/fags who writhe in misery.
>/pol/ is always right in the end
They used to be right before it devolved into /b/-lite like a year after it was made.
Do something outrageous like.. doing something you've never done before. Do the opposite of what you used to do.
Example: If you're lazy; then try to be not lazy.
If you're an underachiever, then over achieve!
~you can have too much of ANYTHING~
We need a new world war.
The drop takes less than four seconds.
Trust me. I know.
The Only Thing We Have to Fear Is Fear Itself
That's what I'm doing. In the process of enlisting now, hopefully I'll be fit enough to get in by the end of this summer.
Sage for blogshit
Then do a shit ton of drugs.
You don't care if you live or die, and drugs can up the serotonin levels in your brain. Trips are the most intense experience of your life, and will be doubly so if you never had any decent experiences as a kid.
Probably will cure your depression too, going by ketamine studies.
Yeah I have a relative who lives down in New Orleans and makes around 90k~ doing that.
I can't even imagine the shit he has seen though.
>you will never relive 2011 on /a/
There wasn't anything special about that year. But there was just so much going on.
>2003 was 57 years ago
why have I spent my whole life here
How to achieve
I wish I could.
>porn game adaptation
>that penguin thing no one has actually seen
>no mention of Kaiji
There are beneficiaries, not masters. No one actually understands or controls the society that pins us down, and there doesn't need to be. It's self perpetuating, and self generating, maybe a long time ago someone knew what they were doing with it, but they're dead, it's just people who through chance have managed to find ways to profit from it. It's Universe 23.
Shut the fuck up and fuck off. You're basically bragging right now. You're in such a good position in your life at the moment that you have no fucking right to complain. You're legitimate fucking pissing me off with your complaining about your great life right now.
Shut your naive as the fuck up right now because all these problems you have are trivial and meaningless. They're not actually problems. Everything will fall into place at the point you're in. You're just complaining about thoughts and ideas. Nothings actually wrong. Again, everything will be falling into place soon enough.
Instead of killing yourself, do something risky that you would never do. Skydive, bet all your money in one blackjack game.
>on the internet, nobody knows you're a dog
I don`t know what kind of education you need for that kind of job, but if I end up failing in life, I`ll try this as a fall back
I used to hate my university days, well, not really "hate" but back then I used to dream about how I will get a job and no longer need to worry about studying.
Now I realize how much I miss...everything about those days
>those innocent days when I used to watch anime without knowing horror of shitposters of /a/ and other stuff like that
>the days where I didn't even have a dreams or big goals and just enjoyed the life
>the days I used to have someone best bud that I can talk about anime/manga but now he's not interested in them anymore
>the days when you were listening some anime openings while going back home from another boring day
>back when I trying to prepare for some tests and instead was watching some youtube videos the whole night
I miss it, all of it, it was no better than now for sure, but something is missing, something I don't feel anymore.
YOU CAN'T DO IT IF YOU HAVE NOTHING.
Drugs cost money.
I don't want miserable /a/nons, I want /a/nons who genuinely enjoy wiling away their days watching animu and reading mangoes.
Don't listen to this retard. Drugs legitimately only fuck your problems up moer and deepen your depression.
There is no way to die without inconveniencing others. Like if you drowned wherever your body washed up would lose tons of money/tourism. We're all infections that cant come out clean.
You are fucking retarded.
>There are people posting on this board who were born after Evangelion
and I'm one of them
Fuck that, you can. You can always go into a soft trade. Tanks need mechanics, trucks need drivers, and desks need clerks behind them. People have no clue how many bullshit easy jobs there are in the military.
Guys, 5 years ago were 5 years ago, holy shit (no really, that's when I finished school but holy shit it seems like it was last year, I hated those fuckers so bad)
>bet all your money in one blackjack game.
This.Remember Hell is where the goddess of luck lies in wait.
Even though I have two jobs, it's still not enough for my own apartment
Example: If you're on /a/, then try to not be on /a/.
Do you speak in self-help bullshit?
I'd rather be a garbageman. Decent living, apparently great unions, and public servant benefits.
You have brains, no?
Wrong pic though
the hell are you talking about op, it's been only a few months since madoka aired ;_;
>Bet all your money in one blackjack game
Oh, are we at the part were we give out purposely awful advice already?
As in, Cant. [Cant]. Cannot join. At all. Zero.
Unless I hop borders and join the bloodfest in the shithole I left when I was four.
Yeah but what happens when an actual war starts and they get desperate enough to put fuckoffs like us on the front line? My Grandpa was an engineer in a fucking military think tank before they realized they needed more troops and shoved him out there.
Like, I get the whole concept that suffering is relative, but this is fucking ridiculous. >>101608482 is right, step up to the plate and enjoy the great life you have coming your way while the people who have real problems try to make it through another day in hell.
As long as you're not some junkie, retard, or felon all you have to do pass a couple tests.
If you enlist in the Navy you might have a chance of visiting the Nips we all revere.
More buzzwords you FotM newfag.
Somehow, I've become 23 years old. Where did the time go? Why am I not as accomplished as my peers of the same age?
I wish I could go back to being 10 years old so I could have a do over and not fuck shit up.
I`m unfortunately too vain to be a garbage man. People would not have a high opinion of you.
>Been here since August 2006 according to this pic
>Hit rock bottom
>Finally try to grow and leave 4chan
>Joined Toastmasters, got a job, learned several languages
>More money than ever
>Something is missing
>Realize I'm completely and utterly alone in this world except for Anonymous
>Everything that I worked for crashing down because I just can't stop my melancholy
There is nothing. I already tried quitting /a/ and watching anime and manga on my own, but it doesn't makes sense unless my friends are with me..
Why would he have a chance at visiting Nips?
Oh yeah Mexico's having another revolution in a few months aren't they? Those anti cartel guys who kill cops they think are corrupt seem trustworthy, I'm sure joining them couldn't backfire.
Any jobs where social interaction is minimal? The past 4 years of NEET life have made me so anti-social I actually begin to shiver when I talk to strangers or if I feel a bunch of people are looking at me.
what kind of fucking world do we live in where this is the case? no spouse, no kids, just me and 2 jobs isn't enough to keep me above water.
america the free indeed.
What's army life like, /a/?
I've always wanted to ride a tank.
>Get up and go for a walk
I have severe anxiety and paranoia. I'm literally afraid to go outside for a walk
Gotta make sacrifices.
This. I hate this. People are your life, like it or not. We need social interactions and relationship. I need one so bad right now.
Man, what hole in the ground did you come from?
Just because you're in theatre doesn't mean they expect you to sit in a trench and go on patrols. If you aren't trained in the infantry, don't expect to do infantry tasks. Non Combat personnel go over in a non combat role. It's not fucking difficult.
>dreams of normalfaggotry
What the fuck is happening in here? Why is this thread allowed to exist?
>5 years old already
I literally remember everything that I did that summer like it was a few months ago. Including all the rampant stream of moe threads dedicated to k-on that summer.
where do you fags live for christ sake. i live in the south and one job pays for my rent and other bills.
Because we have a base in Nippon? My friend is a Marine who is being sent there after two tours in Afghanistan. Gonna get some jap pussy.
Trust me, in the modern political climate people would consider themselves "privileged" compared to you. I mean it might be hard to pick up chicks but you don't need to tell them where the money comes from. The people who really get shit on are meter maids and minor enforcement people like that.
Yeah its bullshit.
Keep 'em coming, those pictures are both relevant and meaningful to my replies. You're fitting in great.
Are you having fun posting pictures you never get to post?
use those languages to get some pen pals or something. it's great fun.
I just want to have friends who share same views as me and I can talk with them about anime/manga and maybe other stuff.
I used to think about /a/ as my own "Outer Heaven" a place where I belong, but I was wrong, I didn't come here for silly drama, but all I have here is "drama".
One day anon, we'll all just be dust...
>4chan was founded 100 years ago
>4chan founder Moot Sheckelstein passed away 22 years ago
US Military bases in Japan
Because /a/ needs to vent sometimes.
A base for what? Why is it there?
>i live in the south
Well the standard of living is lower down there. Understandably so because no one likes blacks.
Try not living in a shithole city with inflated cost of living. There are cities outside of major ones likes New York where the rent's around 1 fifth what you probably pay.
Do any of you believe in reincarnation? I feel like the only thing I have to look forward to is my eventual death, in hopes I'd get to do life over again.
What the fuck has happened with all of that time
2007 was superior.
>Why is it there?
Did you take history in high school anon?
I can tell by your geography skills that you are indeed a class above me in every conceivable way.
Are you an American? Because I'm not sure if you're just stupid or whatnot, but as the US of A, we have bases in pretty much every fucking country.
>there are people born in 2000s that will be posting on /a/ and 4chan soon.
It's okay, Anon, OP is just trying to make you feel bad. Rozen Maiden aired Last Year. All anime that has ever been made either 1) is currently airing, 2) aired Last Season, 3) aired Last Year, or 4) is classic. Since Rozen Maiden didn't air Last Season (That was when things like Jinrui, Fate Zero, K-On S2, S;G aired), and it's not classic (because the subs aren't yellow), it aired Last Year.
Same here, anon. Same here.
LOL YOLO XDDD
He's gonna go to Okinawa, and he's gonna get some serious STIs.
>I've tried h2s gas but then I realized that the person who would find me might get injured as well.
I hope to be reborn as a little girl
I actually really don't want a friend to talk to about anime and manga. I have one, but I don't like discussing with him especially since he doesn't like the variety of things I do. I like just having /a/. What I need is a 3DPD and I think I'd be happy
I'll admit, I fucking loled.
Get a night job.
I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind.
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, and all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind, everything is dust in the wind.
No. I believe that when we die there is nothing else. And I like it that way.
I said like New York. Where in Florida do you live?
There'll be no waifus in the next life. No moe. No hope.
>in hopes I'd get to do life over again.
>Finally..a new life...
>get reincarnated as a nigger in Africa
Holy shit, I've been here for 6 years. I always put it in the ballpark of 3 or 4, but 6?
I don't regret it, I love you guys.
New Port Richey
I did but I'm Canadian. Seriously, enlighten me.
Zoids Genesis seems to have aired in 2005.
So nine years. Nine fucking years. I am 22.
>someone sees dead anon.
>smashes car window or whatever.
>they inhale toxic gas.
Me too brother, it's a horrible place but it feels like there's no way out.
Go away you fucking idiot.
Hey, you'll probably get laid more by 16 then you have in the entirety of this life. It just might not be consensual.
>Lurking /a/ at 4:00 am and loving every second of it
>Skipping classes to watch airing anime with /a/
>When you found your waifu
>When /a/ broke you into a new fetish
>The ambiance and enthrallment when you realized that Anonymous truly understood you
>implying his soul isn't bound to the 4-Leaf Throne and he's protecting the very existence of 4chan with his entire will
Seeing all you old people cry about how you wish you did something with your lives inspires me. I'm 21 btw.
>it's a horrible place but it feels like there's no way out.
This should be on the sign that welcomes you to florida when you cross the state lines.
I know that feel bro...
I think the thing that keeps me coming back here is all my friends are normalfags. I mostly have nothing in common with them anymore, we've all just grown apart, but we still hang out. And the feeling I get around them just makes me yearn for this place.
Stop beating yourself up about the past /a/, I bet you think you "wasted" your years here on 4chan, but I also bet you had a good fucking time during those years.
>Serving the false admin who betrayed his son W. T. Snacks
I'm still technically a teen and I feel like I've already lost the chance, faggot. I wish I did something with my Highschool life.
I don't believe everything is just mere chance and that there's nothing after this. I've seen too much death to think that way.
Call me edgy or whatever but sometimes I wish a war broke out, a huge one, where a crapton of people died or something that could reduce over-population or changed earth in radical way forever.
And honestly? War always bring about progress, society nowadays is horribly stagnated in my opinion.
>2010 winter olympics in vancouver
>16 yr old me wonders what kind of person Ill be 4 years from now
>wonder if by then I'd look back and laugh at all the shit tier garbage anime I watched
>winter olympics literally a couple days away in Sochi, russia
>still doing the same shit
>still hope I escape this crippling stranglehold of depression
>hope in 4 years time I stop relying on /chinese cartoons/ for escapism from my problems
Cant wait for 2018.
Then we pretty much just never left
31 here, turning 32. Stuck in a dead-end job and no family. Now I know why Saber wanted a redo in FSN. This shit hurts mane.
I've been here 10 years. First discovered this site when I was 12. 4chan practically raised me and that really fucked me up.
If anyone here is under 18, please leave. Not because of the 18+ rule, but because it's not too late for you. Only bad things will happen to your life if you stay here.
I'd like to be reincarnated as a sloth
That'd be pretty nice
I like you
America double-nuked Japan, and occupied it with it's military. They still have bases there to protect their interests in east Asia, just as they do in many other places in the world.
What you want fewer people and a more live while you can cause you might die tomorrow atmosphere so you'll have a better chance at hooking up and getting a family?
You enjoyed watching anime with like-minded people
>Clean up radiation
>Implying you can
It's not over yet, not by a long shot. Just take out a loan for school and do good. Get a job. It's literally that easy unless you're retarded.
I just want to fight in a huge war.
>yfw Russia 2018 and where ever the snow olympics are in 2018 come around we will still be feeling the same feels we feel right now
/a/, have you ever thought about all the relatively autistic people who weren't born for the hardships of the outside world, yet were forced to go outside and confront life because the internet didn't exist yet?
You are so lucky.
>mfw I just finished the Fate route for the first time just 10 minutes ago
It's not fair man, it's just not fair.
I wouldn't mind being a cow. A free range one, not the ones they keep in cages.
Man, fuck the winter Olympics.
We were born in the perfect time to witness the birth and infancy of the internet.
Whenever I was 18 I'd figured in a few years I'd have a nice job and enough money to support myself and thought I had plenty of time to fix my life.
5 years later, still nothing.
9 years later, still nothing.
>tfw sorta want to get into weeaboo computer games but have no idea where to find them or if my shitty linux chromebook could even run them
They probably all killed themselves or were put to death. So I wouldn't guarantee that.
I'd wanna be a lion. Either I live like and die like a beast or I get lucky and get a full on harem to do everything for me. Is there an anime about pimp lions? There should be.
It's kind of funny how when 4chan was younger, a year was so much. The leap from 2006 to 2007 felt so important, for example, but nowadays the years just blur together.
I just want to die in a huge war. That way people will remember me as someone who died trying to protect something instead of remembering the piece of shit I am now.
I have. I've come to thank them for dying so I can shitpost on the internet. They're like Jesus only they were real once.
Anon, it is a great feeling when this dream starts coming true
Blame it on 4chan but you were already dysfunctional
I'm 22 and I'm feeling old because I was a kid not so long ago and now all my childhood friends are married with kids.
Man, FUCK the Tokyo Olympics.
That's not what I'm talking about but even despite that, I'm in school and don't have the motivation for it. Fuck. FUCK.
At least they didn't have the opportunity to escape and become worthless leeches like us.
I really wish I was born 100 years ago or so, maybe in the 1800s. Sure life was harder but they wouldn't tolerate this shit.
It'd be nice if I could grow a pair and do something. Having crippling social anxiety isn't helping, either.
Are you me? I just keep working everyday, at my job and in my classes feeling like I'm in some sort of endless loop that is a spinning top on the line of time. Moving forward but doing the same damn thing forever.
Humanity is really fucking good at fighting and exploring new places. But it's getting harder and harder to explore new places, and wars are so devestating and sterile that we're in a perpetual state of MAD. So we sit around and fantasize because we still have the willpower that got us, as a species, to the point where we can sit around and fantasize.
Ironic that the drive of humanity is specifically to put us in a situation where that drive has no vent for release.
It's not 4chan's fault. 4chan is only here to make people realize what they really are.
Don't be silly, no one will remember you either way.
This guy gets it. I relate heavily to that German LT in The Moon is Down in that way. He has romantic notions of dying quietly in war, his men standing around his body solemnly. That stuck with me for some reason.
I'm 20 and will be 21 in around 2 months. If everyting goes well I'll start University this year on a Scholarship.
Honestly, I don't understand why people are so focused on having kids so early on their lives, specially when they don't have any kind of stability or maturity to raise them. Like you said, they were kids not long ago, they practically are still kids, children should not be raising other children.
Sorta. I was forced to go interact with people by my mother when I was a teenager. Going to movies/going out to fairs/conventions/shops/parks etc. I never really enjoyed them. Once I graduated from school, I havent gone to any of them8+ counting.
Jesus, even according to science, was proven to exist.
Take this mans advice.
I cant find my bottle of whiskey. This is terrible.
Holy shit guys, just hang in there.
In less than 30 years you'll be able to extend your life indefinitely and modify your body into that of a cute girl. All your problems will be gone.
For now, get a job and save up money so you can afford all the augmentations.
Turning 30 in a few months. I've been here since the very beginning. Where the hell did the last decade go? Goddamn I don't want to think about this.
>no one will remember you either way
>you will never be one of the great legendary heroes
>you will just be dust
I am perfectly fine with how things are.
Bravely Default is coming out in two days and I am going to have a great month.
You're always welcome to have a beer with me instead anon
Anyone else think 4chan actually helped them socially?
>me before 4chan
would go home after school and cry in my room and wonder why i was such a freak and a loser and the only thing keeping me alive was the insane believe that things would somehow get better
>me after 4chan
I learned to communicate a lot better through constantly talking to you weirdos online, im more open with people not so afraid to let them see the real me, and i actually crack a smile once and awhile.
BUT MAYBE ITS JUST ME.
I haven't cried in years.
Presuming society hasn't collapsed by then maybe you're just right.
have you tried drinking yourself to sleep every night?
how do people even manage to keep doing that? i tried it for like 4 days in a row and just felt sick and numb all the time. honestly i don't understand true alcoholics they must have a magic trick or something
That's great anon, now you just have to learn English.
Very few people are ambitious enough to be innately motivated. Either find a hobby and let funding that be your drive or make the alternative of acting become so terrifying in your mind that you're driven by fear.
That hit a little too close to home
If you aren't remembered, then you never existed.
>not wanting to be an octopus or jellyfish
ahh it would be so great
Fuck. I think of when my mom used to do that and I appreciate it so much more now. I wish she was still here to do it because it would have really made a difference right about now.
Maybe one day I will travel to gods favorite country England and they will teach me.
I wonder if that would've helped much. I went through much of the same stuff outside of /a/. Seen the things I was meant to see, read the things I was supposed to read. Coming here was like some kind of holyland. Only more depressing.
This. It makes me think that we're not really depressed and are actually happy. Either that or it is literally a genetic or moral thing that actually prevents the possibility of us doing that.
>cry in my room
>open with people
You stop getting headaches but you still get a little nauseous in the morning. Eventually it's not bad at all.
I hope I can stay with you anons for as long as I can.
Meh, it's not like I don't have anything to show for it.
>Almost done with college
My next project will be to get /fa/ and /fit/
Surely, you guys didn't literally just fap away the years.
I want to fap but I'm not aroused at all.
Same with me. Actually discussing things instead of sheltering myself entirely helped me learn how to communicate with real people and stop hiding myself.
>Implying the world wouldn't be ruled by one nation by then and were forced into jobs that suit our aptitude.
>I haven't cried in year
I want to cry Anon, but nothing is able to move me anymore. I just want to feel something, anything really.
Its a specific gene that some people unlock
Thad deserved what he got.
"True" alcoholic here, professionally diagnosed and everything. I can explain it in detail if you're still around and interested in what a horrendous shitshow having alcoholism actually is.
>Either find a hobby
I'm sort of doing that. There are a few things I want but it's not enough. It's increased over time, which I'm happy about, but I still don't want enough to be motivated for school.
After a bit of retrospecting, I think I've been here for about 3 years. It all went by in a flash, though. It's hard to remember what shows I watched with /a/ and what I saw on my own since I've been watching chinese cartoons for far longer than I've browsed /a/.
I want a place to die that isn't the hole that I'm in.
>Surely, you guys didn't literally just fap away the years
It's like you want to go in reverse.
I'm not sure why you guys aren't excited to find your ideal career. I look forward eagerly to the day I can cut into living people and not cadavers or cats-- it sounds like you need something you're passionate about
You stop getting headaches but you still get a little nauseous in the morning. Eventually it's not bad at all.
Why don't you just stop drinking?
Wizard powers incoming.
It is entirely about tolerance. If you haven't been heavily drinking since your mid teens it'll probably take several years of heavy drinking before you're able to handle it.
>Surely, you guys didn't literally just fap away the years.
Get /fit/ if you want, that will help. But please stay off /fa/.
I'm glad someone understands. I think maybe before 4chan I genuinely thought i was a freak and no one could like me and now i've see just how freaky this world is i can just laugh it off and be semi-normal and open around people.
I've gotten this way with sex due to over exposure to porn.
I want a boner but nothing as able to move me anymore.
You know what my worst fear for this place is? One day I'll be the only older board member, while everyone else is generally new, and no one will know what I talk about or reference. All the people that "got" me back then either moved on or died and left me here alone with these people
who the fuck cares how you waste your time? Nothing in life matters and everything other than anime ends up sucking. I'll be alone watching anime until I an hero and I like it that way.
If people were actually reasonable then there wouldn't be any alcoholics
/fa/ is degeneracy. You gay anon?
how do you drink so much? ive been drunk once i my life and it was awful. never done it again because of how shitty the feeling is.
No one here is going anywhere. Shot away.
But we all end up in a hole anyway.
If you're lucky enough to get a proper funeral and not just be cremated
i'm interested. all of my grandparents were either alcoholics or bingedrinkers so i thought myself doomed to repeat the process but it just hasn't been as nice as i thought it'd be
I drink myself to sleep every night, it feels pretty good and helps me sleep. I haven't had a hangover yet
My life is shit, but anime is not what's at fault. At least I know Japanese thanks to manga and anime, that's a lot more than I got out of many other things I've wasted my time with.
Think about it, /a/. You've heard a lot of people say "I'm about to become a wizard", but very rarely "I didn't become a wizard after all." And even rarer still "I am a wizard, yet I remain among you."
So where do they go?
So it turns out that the bitch my sister brought to the house two days away stole my alcohol.
Every morning, I'm trying to understand, why I need to wake up, why I need to open my eyes and live another empty day of my empty life, why do I need to continue to live.
Unable to find the answer, I still wake up, going in the walk with the dog, back home, open /a/, expecting nothing but another day of shitposting that I wish I wouldn't see, expecting another painful realization that the only place where I talk with people, send me into the depths of despair.
Every day I wonder, what's the point of my existence, being a shame for a family, being a waste of human flesh, never once I used to be proud and self-confident, I still live, even If i don't want to.
I don't know why I need to live, it's just seems to be so empty, boring job, boring people that surround me, boring life that keep pushing me to do things I don't want to.
I keep living, with the only option I wish I would have, going somewhere far away, where no one could see me.
>I've gotten this way with sex due to over exposure to porn
Actually having sex is boring to me now, I have no way to satisfy my fetishes without becoming some sort of weirdo in the eyes of my family and friends
Oh and marijuana.
/a/ should probably be smoking more pot
Sometimes I wonder if my life would have been better if I had never found out about this place.
More like corroded liver functions that are designed to detect/repel poison are worn out by overdrinking. Thus if you have "tolerance" then you are not working correctly.
They ascend to the 2nd dimension
I've seen wizard threads before. They're there, lurking.
Well, I'm sorry then.
Ok, maybe I shouldn't have said /fa/. I don't want to be a ninja with a hitler youth cut or anything. I just want to be reasonably presentable. Right now I'm just wearing the cheapest shit I can from Uniqlo, which is already a huge upgrade from my old oversized raggy jeans and t-shirts.
The holy land of Gensokyo
It's just like the banner says, Anon. You're in hell.
Why would you stay here if you have magic or a GF?
Sex is only exciting to me when there's a danger of being seen or if i'm being overly violent towards the woman.
>my eternal struggle is to convince the girl to let me fuck her outdoors
There are actually neurological brain issues which cause desire for alcohol to be weighed above reason and survival for some people.
They go to the magical land of wizards, in which they become cute little girls, but forget all about their previous life, so they stop browsing /a/ and instead spend the rest of their lives drinking tea and trying out cute dresses with other wizards.
The only thing I'm passionate about is my leisure time. I do nothing in my life out of passion, just obligation. I have a steady job, but no ambitions. All I want to do is fritter away my time watching anime, listening to music, and playing video games.
Any and all passion I had was sucked out of me years ago by failed relationships and dashed dreams
Same here, anon.
Your dog might die soon.
Its worse because I was actually downtown vancouver for the ceremonies and when it dawned on me that some of the competitors were my age, it really made me think what I was doing with my life (playing vidya, reading manga, watching anime obsessively to the point I made a list of all the thing I wanted to watch). And then I saw all the commercials for this years olympics and all the feels I had back then came crashing down back on me. I just assumed that I would magically get my shit together. buuuuut noooooope.
It's true being here since I was a teen and now well into adulthood being in a place thats somewhat comfortable to the idea of being a NEET/hikko doesnt really motivate you to change much when you've found a bunch of like-minded people around you. Those NEET threads that pop on here every once in awhile back in 2010/2011 only made me feel that while being asocial was frowned upon by society it was okay cause there was people out there who just as pathetic as me out there.
>I just want to be reasonably presentable.
And that's the exact opposite of what you will get by taking /fa/'s advice. /fa/ is nothing more than a group of insecure circle jerking pretentious faggots who cling to what's trendy.
Magic or a GF? What?
Its not really an issue specific to alcohol. Its specific to how human brains are wired.
Hate reading this. It's like going through a huge process since I kind of relive my old days. It's just...a huge fucking process. Too much work.
point blank moot needs to make a self-improvement board.
I think it's the self awareness. Once you realize how nervous everyone else really is it takes a shit ton off your back.
Fuck, I better avoid women for the next six years. I'm so close.
Go to university with childhood best friend.
Move into a 2 bedroom apartment with him.
He smokes weed all day and stinks like shit.
Skips all classes and just listens shitty music all day and seems to be getting dumber every day.
I hate drugs.
that would be a combo of /adv/, /fit/, /soc/ and /fa/ in theory
maybe not /soc/. maybe that's giving them too much credit but oh well.
Been there and done that. It's fun, but it's not enough.
I simply wish to dominate and mind break traps till they cannot survive without my cock. It's a far off dream that can never occur
Why are normalfags always attracted to these thread?
>actually helped them socially
Talking with people over internet will not help you socially.
Isn't that what /adv/ is for?
That's already happening, Anon
I just watched and finished Death Note, I just feel so sad now ,_,
>someday 4chan will be gone
I think that will be the day I finally break as I have nothing else.
Find something you're passionate about thats actually productive
/adv/ is just relationshit advice.
Well there should be laws against normalfags having drugs, they are keen to ruin everything they touch.
>All These Memories Will Be Lost In Time
That little raging jew killed this sentence for me.
What Moot needs to do is hire clean the damn site from all the crap he's been allowing recently. Look at how many "social" and "acceptance" boards there are now. Look at how much people use emoticons now, look at how many people use Tumblr gif and filenames now. This place has gone to hell and back.
Sometimes I wish Moot just didn't give a fuck and closed down this shithole. Whatever becomes the new Chan for us will probably have a thousand times better staff than this place ever had in it's whole lifespan.
4chan will never leave, but it will change.
You just used anime air dates to give you context for how much your life has gone by and you're asking what you're doing with your life?
Already has though. So oops you're an idiot.
I used to have cat, she died few years back ago.
That will be the day I finally leave this mortal coil.
Quit working and stop caring about impressing people. NEETdom is liberation.
Sad really and they wonder why everyone thinks they're weird when every other normal person is wearing this and their wearing some goth ninja moon space man outfit.
I just hide my power and live my life Anon, you can't run away from society physically in the end unless you have a literal disability. This place is my safe haven from the harsh world of reality.
I'm almost out of my twenties and have accomplished nothing other than learning what a fuck up my life is
What about the hikki thread?
But I've seen self-help advice there too.
Things like 4chan never die. They just decay and rot until you wish they had.
what if he stopped being a bitch and brought w.t. snacks back? he was the posterboy for wayward moderation and anti-normalfaggotry
The Marines are the fucking problem. Fuck some fucktarded reason they rape jap girls almost every day. They are the main reason US forces get a bad rep in Nip Land.
>being shame of family
I have to goto a family party this weekend and Im going to have deal with the usual uncomfortable grilling process of what Im currently doing with my life. I have a good feeling everyone already knows the truth.
>being homeless is freedom
People almost always used emoticons, albeit sarcastically. It just became unpopular for a while in the middle there. Also tumblr images are usually the first things in google searches now.
In the civilised world you're only homeless if you chose to be.
Damn I love that song
Anyway, am I the only one that deep down just wishes some major catastrophe would happen so it could take all of us away into your own waifu's world?
I know it won't happen tho ;_;
grumpy ojii-sama ;_;
People use them ironically nowadays. You mostly see it on the worst boards like /v/ or /vp/ but I have started to see them even in boards like /a/ or /m/. Every time I scroll down there's a :( or crap like that.
>The Austro-Prussian war was 148 years ago
>You will never wear a pickelhaube into combat
>Also tumblr images are usually the first things in google searches now.
Why would anyone post pictures from Google search? I bet these newfags don't even keep a 4chan folder.
Didn't he bring him back a while ago, just as a normal mod now?
Meant to say unironically.
Who the fuck wants to be a pickle?
>2010/2011 people constantly bitched about tumblrgifs in filenames/reddit/emoticons
>some attempt at community based moderation via shaming tactics
>now its accepted as normal
Whenever I hear this song, I'm always struck with terror that I'm going to spend the next 10 years not accomplishing anything. It would be so fucking easy for me, I've never been driven and always given up in the past. I failed out of university after 3 years and now I have a loan to pay back, all because I was too lazy to ever study. I don't really even care about finance to be honest, I just want to create things and live a reasonably good life, but I know that there's a very real possibility that as soon as I find a job I'll just submit to the daily grind, and spend whats left of my free time here or watching anime.
I just feel like I'm trapped in a cycle of giving things up because I know that if I pursue them I'll just give up.
Don't even fucking get me started on /v/. /v/ and /a/ have been my 4chan life for the last 8 years, and /v/ is a fucking shit stain now. It's fucking astonishing how much of a piece of shit that board is.
Who gives a fuck? It's like a retro meme or some shit at this point. Shitposting changes just like lingo and eventually language do.
What this site needs is board specific mods, at least for the bigger boards.
Mods that actually lurk.
oh crap, he didn't fix shit if that's true. we're doomed.
Do you have any ambitions? Even vague wishes?
I'd just say just do it. No, it's not too hard, it's not your genetics, it's not too expensive, you can force yourself to make time for it, it's not impossible unless it really is.
If you can't motivate yourself, then you'll never accomplish anything worth being proud of. Just fucking do it and don't look back.
What happened to W.T. Snacks?
Fuck me, all I want is a goddamn job that can support my buyfagging needs. And I can't even get autismbucks.
Waking up literally bathed in your own vomit
Because it's something they looked up outside of 4chan before posting it? The real issue is people being such lazy faggots they can't name their files properly.
He killed moot and took his place,
I honestly feel pity for /v/ and /co/ and how SJW-crap has practically ruined those boards and corrupted videogames, cartoons and comics to a point of being unable to be repaired. I feel really bad for the people whose hobbies have been ruined by all that stuff.
I earnestly wish that every single one of you - for that matter, the entire world - will live forever. That there would be no more death, and for that matter no more illness or war or strife or hardship of any kind. Just continuous life, forever, beyond the exhaustion of the last star.
My hatred is limitless and without exception.
>most /a/nons on ne-/a/ are too new to remember Madoka or Steins;Gate
Where do all the oldfags go? Do they stop watching anime, become normal, and begin watching reality tv and football in its place?
Grass is always greener /a/
When you have your job that makes you work most of your days away, all of your friends who take up the rest of your time, a relationship that will be 24/7 maintenance, and maybe even kids who you will have to dedicate your entire existence to, you will miss this place. You will miss it bad.
You guys should try video games or programming besides anime. Be a loser with taste not just a loser.
>You guys should try video games
Yeah, I sure can wait to play masterpieces like Gone Home.
I'm a programmer.
No good anime video games. I rather not play those shitty generic fps shotter or generic wrpg or generic jrpgs.
Some people are regretters, they always think of what could have been done in the time they were given.
Others are satisfied in the knowledge that given the what you knew at the time, you would have made the same choice because, by the very nature of you having made it, the choice must have been the best option at the time.
Actually, I think /a/ would be better off building model trains.
Anon, just like any hobby people come and people go. Some of us just stuck around an extra 'cycle' clinging to the dying hopes that the fun and entertainment we used to have would return.
>Gundam aired 38 years ago in my country
>Gundam 0079 aired in 1979
>Gundam aired 29 years ago in Japan
>Zeta Gundam aired in 1985
Guts got on the boat eight years ago
oldfags find decent oldfag friends offline and stick to them.
they leave the internet
I swear every day I open up my lastest project, write like 3 lines of code, test, then go back to browsing /a/.
I'm gonna take this opportunity to vent a bit, since I keep all of this bottled up.
I'm pretty alright with life, for the most part. Deep down, I'm very motivated to succeed. I've changed a lot in just the past year, but at the same time those experiences have only validated my old, negative, ways of thinking.
I have the drive and ambition to accomplish the things I want - but not the means. It seems that no matter what I do or how hard I try, all of the things I want to do in life are out of my reach. I literally signed my life away and went through hell in order to change, and proved that I have the mental fortitude to do so, but that goal slipped through my hands due to circumstances out of my control. I have more discipline than most people I know, but it doesn't matter when my body is falling apart and my long held dreams have now become impossibilities.
I just want to hold in my own hands the things that I have worked so hard for. Why does everything fall apart so easily and quickly?
I just want to look back on myself years ago and feel happy that I didn't kill myself, but it's the exact opposite.
Anyway, sorry to blog. Back to trying to become a more positive person. I know I can make it through this shit, but fuck, I wish we didn't live in such a deterministic world where practically everything is decided by genetics.
Not free will, just motivation.
For example, you can learn Japanese if you feel like it. 100% of Japan does it, so there's obviously nothing stopping you barring literal mental retardation. It just takes time and consistent effort.
You can get decent at maths if you start from the very basics and slowly work your way up.
It doesn't even have to be anything big. You can start learning how to cook, learning how to do origami, whatever. Just don't sit there F5-ing 4chan for the entire day.
or learn japanese.
I just want to be at peace in my mind. I don't necessarily want to transform into a complete normal member of society, but there is no other way to not feel shame unless I do so.
Driving is easy anon, I just got my N a few days ago, just goto a driving school if you have that much anxiety over causing a crash, they'll literally hold your hand through the entire process. If you live in the suburbs/city theres probaby multiple places you can take your test at, look for one thats known to be easy to pass and has a route thats usually flat and not full of hills/dangerous manoveurs. If my sorry ass can pass, you can too.
>motivation out of thin air
Even more a religious-tard.
I already play video games. I also read a lot and watch movies. Anime takes up more than either of those though. For some strange reason
Is this 2011?
>I feel really bad for the people whose hobbies have been ruined by all that stuff.
mfw the current state of euro /sp/
when will it end? i just wanna go back to the good days.
What is this? 2009?
Guys I've been on /a/ for a year and have barely heard anything about "wizards" What the fuck is a wizard? And why do people talk about becoming one? Here comes the shitstorm.
>Others are satisfied in the knowledge that given the what you knew at the time, you would have made the same choice because, by the very nature of you having made it, the choice must have been the best option at the time.
The point of their thiking is that they wish they had some of the knowledge they have now so that they can make a better choi.ce
I can't even go to a DMV without having a potential heartattack. Too many people there for me. Seems like they are against me too.
Not really strange. There is new anime every single day. There is new video game maybe once every few months. New movie once every week or so.
Ok. I'll start from before I had my first drink.
It's really hard to put the mindset into words for people who don't have it, but for now just imagine that you have an itch that you just can't scratch. You've been aware of it for as long as you can remember, but you've never really been able to figure out a way to scratch it. Sometimes, you're able to drown out the urge to scratch it with momentary distractions, but it doesn't ever really go away. It's just there. Lurking in the back of your mind and influencing everything you do, driving you up the fucking wall. It begins to sort of mess with your head and you act out a bit and try more and more ways of distracting yourself, but it doesn't really do anything. Only temporary relief. You begin to realize that other people don't have that same itch, and that you're different somehow and that leads to social anxiety and other mental illness.
That's pretty much how for the first 13 years of my life went, until I decided to try out alcohol with some friends. Around 3 beers in, I noticed that I was finally relaxing, and for the first time in memory, the itch was gone. Not like before, this time it's actually gone. Suddenly, the world isn't such a bad place anymore, and everything is going to be OK.
As the night goes on and I get drunker, I tell myself that this must the greatest feeling in the world, being free of that itch.
Eventually, I blacked out and woke up the next morning to discover that the itch was back in full force and that I NEEDED to find more booze. So I did, and I drank as often as possible from that day forward.
"Scratching the itch" becomes as much of an instinct as taking a piss, and I wouldn't trade my newfound happiness for the world. If you could experience that feeling, you'd understand too. It's like curling up in a warm blanket with your favorite drink on a snowy day and winning the lottery at the same time. Just utter contentment and happiness.
>Korean Zombie, Yosuga no Sora, and Seitokai Yakuindomo will be turning 3, 4, and 5 years old respectively, this year.
I find it really fucking weird that these are my "recent, memorable anime." Then I remember there's only 4 seasons a year and that each season is 99% mediocre shit, so it's not surprising. Being animu fan is suffering.
Being a NEET can be fun, but you need some way to make money. I got hit by a drunk driver and fucked my leg so I am on disability, and I spend my days reading manga playing vidya and I do some crafts.
Pic related, will be my next project.
>Guys I've been on /a/ for a year and have barely heard anything about "wizards"
Wizards are not an /a/ thing.
>The feel when you do this and don't get a reply
You kind of remind me of me and I'll give you a reply because you even act like me. Don't do that again in the future because posting like this is the wrong way to go about it and won't get you replies, if that was what you're going for.
Keep pushing and make sure you make the right, beneficial choices.
I guess you're right. It's just that a lot of the anime I watch is pretty bad so I feel like I'm wasting my time. There's maybe 5 good shows this season and I'm watching 16.
>/a/ for a year
The problem is your definition of "for a year". If you dont browse /a/ atleast 10+ hours a day everyday, then you aren't on /a/ for a year. You are on /a/ for a fraction of time.
Really a newfag, not even insulting here. Its just you're new to the board.
I fucking hate you guys.
>Guys I've been on /a/ for a year
Read this thread. Its not too late for you, leave while you can.
Not out of thin air, motivate yourself. This might take some time and introspection, but it's doable. I used to do nothing whatsoever, but I got tired of it. I didn't have the motivation to do anything in particular, but I started off by picking something about myself that I didn't like and decided to change that.
Well, I've been here since 2005, sorry.
Ever gotten high / drunk and played with model trains? shit's fun yo
Assuming that 4chan will still be up, what do you think /a/ will be like in the next 5 or so years?
Is this...for real?
Seitokai was my first ongoing ever.
Anybody else talk to their body pillow? I don't even have a waifu cover yet but I legitimately hug it like if its a person every night. I have actually given my pillow a Mugi persona and it keeps me incredibly happy.
More moe-action anime. More slang usage and new evolution of image sharing
If you're asking if that's really what was said in the anime, then yes.
if you do this stuff right, you could probably make a killing on etsy.
Or at least people pretend that it is, to console themselves in their loneliness.
I've been here since first post and reading the whole time. Believe me, I'm much more like you than you think. Mind you, I didn't say I've been on 4chan for a year. I'm just not as knowledgeable as oldfags about anime. I'm almost certain I know more than other 1 year lurkers since I lurk a fuckton.
Kanji is probably the only thing stopping me from grinding Japanese. Seriously, fuck Kanji.
>but for now just imagine that you have an itch that you just can't scratch.
uh. I want to give you a reply but I am too much of a retard to properly express myself. I am not a big fan of drinking and I can relate to everything you just typed.
well its been fun /a/. for some odd reason these threads always slightly motivate me to get off my ass. till next time.
Why do you drugfags always keep saying "MAN YOU SHOULD TOTALLY TRY THIS ON DRUGS"
Holy shit. Why can't you just play with the damn model trains without doing any drugs.
meant to reply to >>101610445
>What is this? 2009?
If only anon, if only. Honestly I think a lot of people here take for granted all the new toys 4chan has gotten. It's super easy to find your own sauce, auto thread f5ing, the catalog. With the exception of capatcha it's become way to easy to 4chan. I hate how easy the catalog support having the same thread forever. I hate how easy it is to find source, something that used to shy people away from here. And it's all built in to the system so you don't need to learn how to 4chanX. The new guys will never know how it was when vanilla 4chan was the only flavor you got and you had to add sprinkles yourself.
Nigger, how do you get "I need to learn how to drive" out of "I've never been driven before".
>out of high school
>living with parents
>none of the jobs call back
>didn't enroll in uni this semester
I-I wonder how long my parents will keep supporting me.
They force me to go to church with them. It's not so bad at least. But my mom and one of her church friends is trying to hook me up with the friend's daughter. I guess I made a good impression on mom's friend somehow. The girl is two years younger than me and underage b&
I-Is it still too late for me?
I am new to clay and stuff but I have made some good money in the past with rings and belt buckles.
You can pretty much guess where it goes from here. From 15 until 20, I had maybe 7 sober days if I'm being generous.
By the time I was 16, alcohol had sort of lost its charm and I was doing drugs like heroin and OxyContin to "scratch the itch". When someone tried to tell me that I was fucking up, it never even occurred to me that they were right. I wouldn't even consider the possibility. They just didn't understand what it was like. All that mattered was scratching the itch, and I would continue doing that no matter what the consequence.
Your brain gets wired to believing that drugs/booze = no more pain = no problem fuck everything else. There ain't no going back after that.
Problems showed up quick. I overdosed and woke up in the hospital after nearly escaping death, and I argued that the doctor was a fucking moron and that I didn't do anything wrong. That's how strong the delusion is.
In all reality, you can't really blame an alcoholic for doing what they do. Anybody would do the same in their situation, I guaranfuckingtee it.
Eventually I began to see what was going on and that causes even more anxiety and then at that point I realized the hopelessness of it all and was drinking myself into blackout every single night and day hoping that I'd never come back to consciousness again. Ultimately, I wind up being homeless at 18 years old and living outside drinking all day every day until I was forced to make a change.
To cut off the blog here, I eventually was forced to get sober and through extenuating circumstances I am sober today. I will have been stone cold sober for 3 years in May. That doesn't mean the itch is gone, I've just gotten exceedingly efficient at ignoring it through sheer willpower. I think about killing myself constantly, and the fight never gets any easier. I see and hear things that aren't there, and I've got so many mental illnesses that psychiatrists don't even know where to begin.
Why? Grammar is stopping me. Seriously, I enjoy grammar but it's tough shit. Kanji is literally just memorizing stroke and sound and then practicing pronunciation. So go START FUCKING DOING IT 'CAUSE IT'S EASY YOU BITCH!
It's latenight. We can easily hit 1000 post before the thread finally dies.
>Lucky Star aired 7 years ago
fuck. You made me look it up. You made me think about my life. Fuck you OP. Fuck you.
I hate me too
The same. As mentioned, most of the old posters leave /a/, so it's just the same stream of teenagers cycling through and doing the same stuff their predecessors did. Maybe the medium will be shittier and be even more saturated with moe, but /a/ tends to obsess over that shit regardless of how much there is, so...
I agree. 4chan has become too efficient.
I'd take that chance. Better than being a depressed NEET.
>/b/ mode activate
Do it faggot.
Grow up kid.
Go for it. I dream for underage
You're right, for the most part. However most people would find something like that to be extremely dull while sober. Drugs DO tend to make things more fun. Why do you think people smoke weed / drink alcohol in the first place?
I wish I could keep so many threads open at the same time. I never can't because I somehow can't stand having too many tabs open at the same time. It feels like I'm killing my efficiency or something.
>ever going for 3d
Tell them you're busy with your anime waifu and that they should fuck off to their pig disgusting 3d land.
Hook up with the daughter. It's better than being alone forever.
Man time flies, I saved this picture over 6 years ago.
If you go with 3D it will cost more money, more time, more patience, and will drive you mad. Stay 2D.
You are fucking retarded if you don't take that chance after reading this thread filled with nothing but self-hate because the people here didn't took that kind of chances when they presented.
I think there's a point of no return in a very early age. 18-22 sounds about right.
>still a child
You're not even close to despair yet Anon, you'll be fine.
The SJW crap in comics is exaggerated, it's just a few faggots like Fraction and marvel marketing.. Cartoons are definitely fucked though.
>tfw when Gurren Lagann made me happier than I've ever been
>tfw no show, game, or other activity has made me that happy since
>tfw when I started browsing I didn't save many pictures
In my prime, I was drinking a liter of Admiral Nelson (Captain Morgan knockoff) everyday to myself, and then whatever else I could find. When the cops picked me up for B&E I blew a .34 and I had drank that liter and also split a case of beer and 2 bottles of wine with another homeless person.
Like I said earlier, it didn't matter. My brain was already set on that one destination, scratching the all important itch. Alcohol apparently affect alcoholics differently than other people so you may not understand.
It isn't anything near "nice", it's literally hell on earth. I hope nobody else ever has to feel the way that I felt, see the things that I've seen, or go through the pain that I'm going through right now.
Nowadays, I watch anime and play VNs all of my spare time. It's the only thing that's made any real difference for me.
You could always join the military.instant job. and if you are smart you don't need to be 11b(infantry).``
Nah, wasn't looking replies or anything. Just feels good to get this out to people whom I care about, and especially since these cyclical thoughts are on my mind so often. Feedback is definitely appreciated though, and I also thought some /a/nons might be able to relate.
And I'll take your advice, I realized that fact after I posted. Cheers man, hope everything goes well for you too.
I wish I could've recorded me reaction to that picture.
>Look away from picture
>"He he he"
>Look back at last line
>"CHY-AHAHAHAH" cigar laugh
That image cuts deep. I don't even hate mid-anonymous anymore.
When did chinese cartoons enter your life?
You don't have to goto into a physical building for driving school, you just call them and set up an appointment and they show up at your house. Even when you goto the DMV for your test, your teach will go in with you(btw, you have to pay a fee for renting the driving schools car during the test, unless you want to use your own, and they'll wait for you in the meantime). I passed my test even though I completely butchered my back parking, she only passed me because I was almost perfect for everything else(driving 30km/h for schoolzones/construction zones, parallel parking). Just a testamount to how easy a driving test really is, although to be fair I got really lucky on who my examiner was and I purposefully scheduled a test with a rep on being easy. I have crippling anxiety too anon, but keep in mind everyone at the dmv is busy on their own problems and arent going to give a shit about you. If you havent got your L already got get it now, because theres a one years waiting time before you can go on your roadt test and get your N. For people like us a years waiting is another detriment in itself. Don't let your anxiety stop you from learning how to drive, if you somehow get your shit together in the future and dont know have a license in the future, It'll be another mental roadblock.
I hope you at least find release in death.
Thanks. You too.
Yep. I'd say that's right. I'm 19 and feel that way.
I never thought I would be sad that "mid anonymous" would be dead.
Didn't new anonymous already exist when mid anonymous was alive?
Tumbling down thread?
I wish I had something strong to drink
>Faggots actually believe this chart
Kinda, but it did not have its claws in deep with /sock/rcanine/ and its sort.
Guys, just lay back, try to relax and let this serenade you for a bit. Let it take away all your worries and relive the good old days
That image is outdated. New Anonymous is dead. The new section of Anonymous is "Late Anonymous" and is essentially what you see with the relationship between reddit and 4chan.
>Do I fit in yet
Well it's not perfectly objective, but what do you think is wrong about it?
>Finishes fast playthrough
>Goes back to playing Katawa Shoujo like nothing happened.
I really only got into anime about 2 years ago. My first year sober was really, really bad and I did not have access to the internet very often.
Evangelion was my first 'real' anime and I was hooked from there, I've been watching at LEAST a series a week since then. It calms me down in a way that nothing besides drugs or alcohol has and it gives me something to look forward to, if that makes any sense. It's odd, really.
I got into VNs mid last year and I play those pretty consistently as well.
Thanks, me too.
>First series is EVA
Jeez, anon. Did your mom die of cancer at the same time or something? Because goddamn son.
Fuck you. I was supposed to do something productive like start my VN or finish a series but I got hoooked to this thread. I can't believe I stuck around of 560 replies.
Celebrate your freedom by starting that VN, anon.
>at LEAST a series a week
Woah slow down there speedy Gonzalez.
They only show extremes and portray that there are only three generations of anonymous that fit into that stereotype
This. Seriously, fucking Eva made me relive the huge fucking burden and process of the 3 year depression I went through which was equivalent in terms of work to Oprah working her way up to where she is now.
Better to be addicted to anime than booze, anyway.
I have found that tabbing a few windows together helps. I get 40+ tabs per window and can still manage without feeling overloaded.
for every two anime i watch i read a solid book. it wards off any intellectual decay like a charm. i work from home writing content for a bunch of blogs and earn my pay in bitcoin. i exercise twice a day and watch what i eat. sometimes i head outside after downing a xanax to deal with the anxiety. it's not a bad life.
I thought it was an anime about fighting robots. You can imagine my surprise when it turned out to be a portrait of mental illness and failed communication.
I related to Shinji immensely and after a period of severe depression I ultimately took a lot of positive things away from the experience.
I'd hardly call watching 1 season a week addicted. You're better off drinking.
H-How do you do that?
You are the second person I've heard saying that EVA helped them thought fucked up moments of their lives. I'm heavily considering watching it now thanks to you and see if it helps me in any way.
>The Leliel episode was the point where I realized I was no longer watching a show about robots. And boy, was it a ride from there. I'll never forget the feeling I had after I finished EoE for the first time. All those tears. All that mindfuck. I went through a goddam existential crisis for a few months afterwards and learned more about myself than any shrink's ever been able to tell me.
The archive sure is a fun place.
Only the second? There's lots of people out there like that. May as well make that three.
It sucks that even with this, this place is less depressing than current /co/.
How can I make money without going outside?
TTGL did that for me, if you somehow haven't watched it yet, I really recommend it.
Play video games for retards on Youtube.
>H-How do you do that?
KDE allows for it if you use GNU/Linux.
I'm sure there is a way in Windows. I'd google "tabbed windows" or "tabbed applications for windows".
Thanks anon. It means a lot to me.
I also work a "real job" now so I don't have nearly as much free time as I'd like. When I was NEET I was watching 2-3 series a week and playing a VN on top of that. I'm making a conscious effort not to blaze through it anymore. God knows that if I burn out on anime I really am fucked.
It opened up some wounds and made me look at some uncomfortable parts of myself, but I'm better for it. I'd highly recommend watching it.
Yeah, that would be me. I remember making that post.
Care to enlighten?
Im glad you're taking the initiative in making sure you're mental capacity doesn't decay. alot of people would be surprised at how much your brain regresses when it doesnt actively get challenged. Constantly watching /chinese cartoons/ cant be good for keeping a sharp mind. Good on you anon for being productive.
If this was early 2013 I wouldve said invest in bitcoins, but that gold rush has passed. They were $50 back then and reached upwards $1000 late last year. I regret being a pussy and not investing in it back then.
Eva sent me to hell of depression, not only it was when I was in one of the hardest moments of my life and need some thing I can go with, but literally fucked me up with all this shit in EoE.
You can't evem imagine how hard it fucked me up.
I just wish theyd give me enough autism bux a month so I could get my own place. $680 doesnt cut it. I dont know how they expect anyone to actually live off of this.
I think you got that wrong.
No problem dude. Im glad I didnt write that paragraph for nothing.
Guess I'll pop it into Bittorent before I forget to.
Any recommended torrents? I know there's a crapton of movies and shit but no idea how it all works.
I actually haven't, call me shallow or whatever, but I haven't because of the less than stellar reputation of the fanbase.
Still, I'll follow your advice and see if anything good comes out of that.
I'm glad I was able to be in this thread and see you talk here anon. Hope your life goes well from now on.
Quit complaining. Autism bux isn't a god given right. It's a privelage. Get out and work you faggot.
I work 48 hours a week for 634 and I can afford food, bills, and a place to stay. Get good.
How do I do this
I'm not quite sure about what OP is trying to tell anon
yes of course we spend a whole lot time trying to dig into animedom by watching almost all the series being aired
but at the same time, i am almost sure that anons also have a life outside of their rooms, like schooling and work
OP seems to be assuming that we're a grub, unable to move out our rooms
I don't like that
>I might be getting kicked out soon even though I got a job like they wanted me to and I have no where to go if they do.
Thinking about just jumping in front of the train that runs by our house a few times a day if it happens. I don't really see myself keeping my job with no house and no car to live out of. I don't even know if i would want to try.
It's just gotten so bad. I mean it's always getting worse, but it's like an exponential decay, at this point you could notice it week to week instead of over months or years. And it's not tumblr shit or whatever, it's just shitposting and people considering constant hype a substitute for discussion. I'm probably just noticing it more now though, rather than it actually changing.
Unable, or unwilling?
Wow, that sounds awfully similar.
W-Wanna jump together?
What did you guys want to be when you grew up?
Weird. It was quite an experience for me but it was literally reliving. I swear the thought process/monologues Shinji had were identical to mine. I understood everything and more because it was me. They were me. All the while, I was also kind of like "fuck this" because I don't have a lot of sympathy for those kinds of issues and just giving up. It's hard. I don't know how to explain it but I watched it like it was nothing new, though I enjoyed it and it also put me back in depression again for a few days, not that I've ever been completely relieved of it. It was just so much shit to go through that I didn't want to go through it again.It's mentally exhausting.
What the fuck is this where then possible? How fuck live Africa of people you no money poor?
How the fuck do you work that much for so little?
The cosmos always intrigued me
>the whole humanity literally become an orange soda
>main characters mostly died
>it's end up right when you wonder what the fuck will be after that
>Anno:too bad you will never know that
It's not that wrong, it's just when it's leaving you with all sorts of questions, and there's no hope for the answers.
>Any recommended torrents? I know there's a crapton of movies and shit but no idea how it all works.
I think there's a torrent on nyaa with everything. 26 episodes of the TV series then EoE. That's all you need.
I don't even remember. I don't remember the feeling of having hopes or dreams or aspirations.
more or likely the same, i am guessing
I honestly never fucking thought about it, at all, until I was like 13. And then I just wanted to be a lawyer or whatever could get me rich.
>Yeah, that would be me. I remember making that post.
Yea, not claiming otherwise. Just commenting on how fun and silly stalking via image hashes is.
I didn't have anything in particular. I just wanted to be happy. I just wanted people to be happy.
I wanted to make comics for a living.
Now I just wish I was dead.
I still want to be an astronaut. Except Im 23 years old with no college education and a GED. Maybe if I start working hard now I'll make it someday.
We will miss you.
What is your opinion on the "new" Eva movies?
This and this. Yes. You. I want you
Whatever affords me a solid middle class life with good job market and stability.
Accounting major now, CPA fuck yeah.
I wanted to make comics too. Hey, do you need an artist who can't draw for your comics that you can't write? We can fail to publish them together.
When I was a kid I wanted to make games at Nintendo. Then I realized that games weren't made with Japanese magic and the process actually involved writing some boring codes on the computer. Then I realized it wasn't boring at all and now I'm a programmer.
Vastly inferior to the original in every single way.
Clearly Anno's just milking the EVA name
Same here. Too bad I'm nowhere near smart enough.
I think I actually am autistic. My parents never told me, but i've always had issues socializing and just learning things in general. I'm not dumb per-se, I just feel like there's something out of my control that's holding me back. should I go get tested or something?
I never wanted anything in particular, I just did what I was told to do.
The only thing I was dreaming is NOT going into hockey training as my father wanted.
Knowing would only make you use it as an excuse.
Alot of the shit I talk about with you guys I never get to say in real life. I remember somewhere in 2010 somebody said the word meme and I had no idea what the fuck they were talking about till later. How the fuck do you pronounce waifu? Meme? Half the shit in doujin?
>I just feel like there's something out of my control that's holding me back.
That's not autism.
Living forever? that would be synonymous with Hell!
Depends if you trust doctors. Autism and Schizophrenia are so ill defined that if you ask ten different doctors odds are you'll get diagnosed with both at least once.
I never thought about it that way. I think I'd rather never know.
>I just feel like there's something out of my control that's holding me back
If this thread has thought me anything, its your lust for alcohol.
Anno's been always talking about how he disliked Eva.
He's being haunted by its wrath from the day it turned into a megatrend.
Through a convo with Anno, Miyazaki Hayao warned him that if he failed to get over Eva in time, that would be the end of his creator life.
Look at him now. What a miserable shit.
Nothing. However, when I was 20 I finally set my first big goal and went to college to try and get a degree so I could try and get in the JET program. If that fell through I would teach high school. When I reached my senior year I finally admitted to myself how useless my major is (English), and how I'm unsuited to teach (I was a TA and had a panic attack the day I was supposed to teach).
>I just want to hold in my own hands the things that I have worked so hard for. Why does everything fall apart so easily and quickly?
It really is ridiculous how fast something you worked hard for can fall apart.
Now I'm back at square one as a NEET, but several years later.
Meme rhymes with gene, go read The Selfish Gene
Waifu, is as pronounced in the Azumnga Daioh scene, "Why-fu"
>Half the shit in doujin
Japanese is pronounced as it is written, tell me what you want to know.
Did you have a panic attack in front of the kids?
I pronounce meme like you woul in Japanese. I know its wrong but I've been saying it that way for over 10 years now.
He was saying it out of spite toward them so that was the point.
My cousin was a perfectly normal kid that was just a little shy, doctors told her she was autistic and she's been using it as a crutch ever since. The only person she really acts normal around is me
i envy you for having a cousin that hangs around you.
Is she cute?
Nice PhD you've got there, anon.
Don't listen to this guy. If you really want to know, go see MORE THAN ONE doctor. Although I would suggest against that, for reasons that have already been given to you.
I doubt she's hot guys.
Go learn hiragana
>tfw most of /a/ is doing better than me in life
I used to come to these threads to feel better about myself.
A paleontologist then a lawyer then a programmer.
Now I want to learn Japanese and become an eroge expert.
I think it's doo-jin
Are you guys all serious about why-fu? Have I been deceived? I thought it was like romaji so it'd be whey-fu like うぇいふ as opposed to わいふ
ITT: self-pity circlejerk
You are currently browsing the largest store of information ever known to humanity. Even on 4chan, if you'd just step out of /a/, there is so much to do and learn.
Nobody is holding you back except yourself.
I haven't left my home in 2yrs. Feel better?
Fuck off Bruce, you got yourself killed and inadvertently caused your own son's death.
self-pity is the last stage of 4chan user. If they won't be able to leave the board after that, they turn into shitposting creature that tries to convince others that they should feel the same.
This type of conversation can be extremely therapeutic.Call it gay, autistic, newfaggy, call it whatever you want. But even the most 1337 hardcore secret animu clubhouses need to vent once in a while.
But where's my motivation? Once you become nihilistic you just don't see joy in life any more.
It was ok, she was a little bit of a brat and acted like a big whiner when other people where around but when we where alone she was really chill. She was my only friend for about 4 years. we live in separate states now and she's engaged.
Oh god no, i lived way out in the sticks so i'd be fine fucking some of my cousins but not her, not with someones else's dick
>Nobody is holding you back except yourself.
Yeah, no shit. The problem isn't that it's not theoretically possible to be saved, the problem is that we're also shitty people.
I think I have paranoid schizophrenia. I can't take it easy anymore because I always feel like some alien like things or evil ghost girl is right behind me waiting to strike. The only way I can drowm out these thoughts is by watching animu but even then I find myself turning around every few minutes to make sure I'm safe. I don't know how to bring this up to a doctor because I'm worried they'd just laugh at me.
Surely there are some anons that drink and can manage to get what they need done. Any other successful alcoholics out there?
>Drink every night I get home from work and school and get all of my homework done maintaining a 3.7GPA at the university
>Transferring to med school next fall
If you're able to maintain a good life and do the things you want to do, you're probably not really an alcoholic. You just like to drink a lot.
They wouldn't laugh. At all. Tell them.
How old are you? I ask because you remind me of myself when I was really young and turned around every 30 seconds before going to sleep because I thought the devil was behind me, thus causing me not to fucking sleep.
Right, just like fucking other HIV infected people helps to cure your own.
Thank goodness no. I rehearsed the lesson plan for hours so I would not fuck up, and got a good understanding of the material. But in the end that did not help at all. On the drive the morning I was to teach I tried rehearsing the material again. My mind went completely blank, and I had no idea what I was going to do. I tried a few times and was at a complete loss of words. I turned the car around and ended up not showing up.
I wonder how long you'll make that last. I give you two years
Hey man, ever tried counseling or a psychiatrist? There's ways to work through it, and even medicate for it that will make it easier to cope with. Tons of musicians and performers take beta-blockers to calm their nerves. If you made it that far, you really should keep going for it.
It really sucks, and it's a part of life I'm still learning do deal with (I'm the dude you quoted), but life isn't merely about being dedicated - it's about being able to bounce back from your failures and return as a stronger person.
I used to have anxiety for a good portion of my life, and I've managed to get rid of most of it. Went from tearing up just from walking in a grocery store, to holding leadership positions and being looked up to etc. I know you can do it too if you set your mind to it.
A doctor won't laugh at you. They could do something worse, like commit you, but they definitely won't laugh at you.
>in this thread
No, its called being a lazy piece of shit.
So much for nihilistic when you posts feels reaction images and mourn the past few years.
One of our professors told a horror story about a patient that one of his co-workers couldn't help but laugh at. Apparently the guy committed suicide the next day. I laughed.
There's a difference between drinking daily and being an alcoholic.
That's how I always used to pronounce it. Only recently changed it since it's become common enough that I can actually say it out loud.
They will laugh at you (deep inside), because self diagnosing is always hilarious.
Oh wow that inaccurate parallel proved him wrong. Why do these things enrage you so much?
Holy Christ, I laughed so fucking hard. I'm too tired.
>Sending a late congrats message to your cousin
Any chance finding another good friend?
No it's called nihilism when you realized life has no purpose but reproduction and keeping your genes going. It's called nihilism when you realized that after your death there is nothing more, no one will remember you, and you will just cease to exist. I don't mourn the years gone, I mourn for the years to come.
>Nobody is holding you back except yourself.
I think most people in here realize that, thats part of the problem with having depression. Even if you self-aware that YOU'RE the problem, you can only use it as a motivational launch pad for so long, before you once again find yourself back at square one.
Guys, having someone be confrontational may be a good thing. Chances are if he had enough intrigue to click on this thread, he probably has the same issues or is attempting to deal with it in way or another. Ive browsed threads like this before throughout the years and while it is therapeutic to know theres people like you out there and air out your issues, its good to have a good wake-up slap even if it's done in a overly simplistic manner. Prevents you from being content with being a loser.
Its inaccurate because you don't agree with it?
Revise the history of the greatest therapeutic board /r9k/ to see how many people it has cured.
I couple years ago I realized that there is no meaning to life. And I went through a period of edgy nihilism, until one day I realized: There may be no inherent meaning of life, but I can make my own.
Do what makes you happy. If anime makes you happy, watch anime. If being with friends makes you happy, make an effort to make friends and spend time with them. If you don't know what makes you happy, try new experiences. You're bound to quickly find something you enjoy, and possibly make some friends while you're at it.
I'm not sure you know what nihilism is.
no, i've been here for a year and the only people i know in this state besides family are steam friends
This thread reminds me of the r/a/dio new years threads a few weeks ago.
This is all Decades fault.
Jesus chritst that sounds horrible. I can never sleep not facing at my wall. I feel something will stare at me or open my closet. How did you manage?
It's inaccurate mainly because you acted as if our situations could be fixed, then compared them to an incurable disease. Also it's just a poorly constructed analogy. Seriously why does this piss you off?
>I don't mourn the years gone, I mourn for the years to come.
So much this.
I'm conforntational because its a cancer thread that starts spreading every time someone thinks "hey I can't wait to make a shout out to other depressed aging losers on the board, JUST
who drunk and schizophrenia here?"
And then him and a dozen of other people remake the fucking offtopic thread every fucking hour. Great idea.
>there is so much to do and learn.
These threads have existed since 2006, bro.
It's inaccurate because it compares an incurable disease to mental health issues caused and aggravated by temporary emotional states and chemical imbalances.
I don't know. I put up with it for a few months where I'd constantly turn around, which started to give me anxiety 'cause it was driving me crazy or just sleeping on my back and looking at both walls constantly until I fell asleep. It started making me go nuts so I just called my mother in one day and started crying and she made it all better. Fucking love that women may she rest in peace. I was like 9 or 10 at the time.
I do both.
Two years? Challenge accepted motherfucker I'll be back in a few years to post my degree
It can be fixed, there is just no reason to fix it, right? Its very convenient to stay pathetic and pity yourself every day. Why would anyone WANT to get better?
>crying about cancer thread
>694 posts late
I'm pretty sure you're talking to a veteran there. I'm pretty damn sure he knows well enough how that route goes, unless you cut down on drinking.
Head over to /fit/ and watch some anime after a long day at the gym.
Head over to /g/ and do a programming exercise for every episode of anime you watch.
Head over to /po/ and make some papercraft for every season you watch. If you get good you can sell your stuff online.
Head over to /adv/ and try and overcome your anxiety while helping other anons do the same.
Head over to /fa/ and learn to dress well once you've finally managed to step out.
Head over to /asp/ and pick up some martial arts.
Head over to /lit/ and become more intelligent in general. Learn to make conversation with intelligent-tier girls.
Head over to /diy/ and learn to build stuff with yout own hands.
Head over to /ck/ and pick up some useful recipes.
Head over to /k/ and learn how to use a handgun.
Head over to /mu/ and listen to some good tunes to keep you motivated.
Hell, stay on /a/ and at least fucking learn japanese and make some money translating.
DON'T BE A SQUARE. DRUGS CAN STOP ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION.
I did it anons, and so can you. This is coming from a place of love. I believe in you all. Together we can become the ubermensch.
In 2006 threads didn't get to 700 posts in less than an hour.
>Hey man, ever tried counseling or a psychiatrist?
I've considered it, but I have doubts on how much it would actually help me.
>it's about being able to bounce back from your failures and return as a stronger person.
I agree. However, my failure costed me half of my twenties and this is still hard for me to swallow. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't feel ashamed.
>I used to have anxiety for a good portion of my life, and I've managed to get rid of most of it.
What changes did you make to your life to achieve this? No matter what mindset I try to change to I always regress back to social anxiety.
time for new thread then, right?
I never said it couldn't. How do you cure HIV? You can't? Then it's a shitty analogy. That's what I'm saying. I'm not even that pathetic, I'm just stressed out and venting. All in all I'm doing okay at the moment. You seem angry though.
I'm glad the rule screaming and cancer complaining faggots came after the thread was finished. There wasn't much of it early on and it died out quick. There was also no hate until the last 20 posts. This was a good thread.
Shortly after I became an adult apathy hit me like a truck, all motivation, desire, and general emotional reactivity left me. Life became very shallow and empty, and by that I mean I became incapable of enjoying anything to a noteworthy degree, and also the opposite end applies as well. I went to a psych and had them pump me full of drugs just to see if they could make me feel any different, and to their credit it did, but that was just the 80mg of prozac aggravating my mild anxiety and meticulousness into borderline obsession.
Fastforward a bit and I'm not seeing any doctors anymore, I quit the drugs cold turkey just to see if I would suffer the "depressive backlash" they warned me about and all I got was some headaches and dizziness for a few weeks, to my disappointment. I don't remember what it's like to be happy, and I don't remember the last time I actually felt sad. I have a pretty decent job, especially considering my material desires are nearly nonexistent, however actively taking part in something has me think about what I should work toward, and it's a subject that frustrates me. Afterall, I can't imagine a worthwhile goal to work toward.
Sometimes I wonder if this void is going to be my entire life, but at the same time I can't say that vague sort of unpleasantness is the same thing as grief. To this day I hope that I'm in the early stages of developing schizophrenia, because maybe insanity would be what finally brings a little color back into my life. I don't think I'm depressed, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I don't know if I should consider myself lucky that I'm not a miserable depressed person, or unlucky that I can't even have suffering and what small happiness comes in the breaks of that suffering.
I apologize for the terrible formatting. I don't know if it's from the majority of my writing/reading coming from /a/ or from something else, but I've gotten a lot worse at putting my thoughts in order.
>Head over to /fa/ and learn to dress well
>Head over to /lit/ and become more intelligent
These don't happen ever.
>Head over to /fa/ and learn to dress well once you've finally managed to step out.
>Head over to /mu/ and listen to some good tunes to keep you motivated.
Everything but these two. Neither of these boards actually know anything about their subjects.
>DRUGS CAN STOP ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION.
No, they can't.
Yes. Just to spite you.
They can control them for as long as you need to get shit done. They are a tactical cure, nothing more or less.
And anime are just colored pictures made for economic profit that cater to your fetishes.
I guess its called nihilism because you had grand delusions and believe your parents for a long time.
It's funny how newfags these days trying their hardest to fit in.
>NOT ANIME THREAD FUCK YA
Because you don't even know that back in the days peopel used to make jokes how /a/ talk about anything but not anime.
This dude gets it. Cheers brah, love you for spreading some positivity around.
I just want to be normal /a/, why is it so hard?
I don't think you've been to half of those boards. Very few of them are actually helpful when it comes to learning.
Its been working so far
I literally have no days off of work and schooling-- honestly I'll probably run out of cash halfway through and HAVE to cut down on drinking
>NOT MY DEPRESSION
>DONT TOUCH MUH DEPRESSION
>YOU CAN'T STOP IT
>ITS THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE PITY ME
>WHAT IF THEY THINK IM FUCNTIONAL AND DEMAND SOMETHING FROM ME
There's a hundred excuses not to. They'll serve as an introduction at the very least, but don't expect them to handhold you through the way.
It's nice to be young and stupid.
I can't give you a worthwhile response, but I read it.
You have absolutely no idea what you're talking about so please fuck off.
Yes, please make a few.
well, your state can't be fixed. And HIV can't be fixed. Its fair.
The problem is that you can't "vent out" completely. The addiction to venting will increase over time.
you're all fucking gay